Done fighting alone

[FindingSolace]

Hello,

I am new to even admitting that some terrible things happened to me. I have done very well at covering up my feelings and pushing them down so far that I feel nothing.

I have a great life, with a loving husband, but my darkness is getting the best of me. 

I have chosen to start to fight to get myself back before I lose everything good that I have. 

I can't do it alone. My husband is by my side 100%, but he can't shoulder this burden alone either. 

I need to go to therapy, but I am not quite ready yet. 

I need to start taking better care of myself, but I don't yet know how.

This is my first step.

I need to keep going. 

[forestmistheather]

Hi Solace,

Welcome to AS.  I'm sorry for what has brought you here, but I am glad that you have taken the step to join us.  You will find a great many supportive people on this forum, and a topic for almost everything (including a space for laughter ).  There is also a space for your husband to discuss things / ask questions if he too wants to create an account (under secondary survivors).  Take your time and have a look around.  You're welcome to inbox me if you have further questions.  The recovery journey is often long and very bumpy, but we are here to support you.

Forest x

[MeBeMary]

Hi FindingSolace,

Welcome to AS. I am sorry for the trauma that you have suffered, but you have found a very supportive site with many understanding and kind members. I think many of us tend to push things down and try to deny it in way, shape, or form. Unfortunately, it always tends to find a way out. I am happy that you have love and support of a husband. This step that you call your first is a huge step. I know reaching out is not easy, but am certain that this is only one step of many on your healing journey. I wish you the best, as you walk this path with us.

Mary

 

[EmergingLight]

Welcome FindingSolace! I'm really glad that you found us, and that you're reaching out. I get minimising and denying terrible things that have been done to us. You'll find a lot of support here 

[HiddenHeart]

Hi, FindingSolace. Admitting to yourself that something happened is a great first step. Welcome to AS. 

[patriciag]

Hi FindingSolace, you don't need to fight  alone any more you have many here to help you

[Struggling88]

Hi, FindingSolace, and welcome!