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Hi all. I’m new. It’s my first time really entering this realm of people since I’m not very good at accepting what happened. Lately though things have been rough. My boyfriend has admitted it’s too much for him when I have those nights of breakdown remember that horrible moment. The one person I thought understood and was there to comfortable me is no longer there and I can’t bottle it up again because the bottle was already opened. Now I’m stuck in my own madness feeling alone, scarred, disgusted, and tired of living. -K-anon

Hi everyone, I'm new here and working on getting up the courage to share. Thank you. qv

Hi y'all! I'm a new member as of a few days ago and here I am to make my introductions! I am 20 and I use they/them/theirs pronouns. I'm a csa and sexual assault survivor struggling with anxiety and severe depression. I'm looking forward to finding support in this awesome-seeming community!

Hello all, I just wanted to make a first post to give a brief story about what's happened and what I'm currently going through. I am a now 23-year-Old woman who suffered abuse when I was a child into my early/mid teens. I never really got the support I needed from family or even friends, even when I did finally come forward and tell them what happened. I know now that many people just don't know how to react or handle learning something like that themselves but because of that, I've lived a life full of negative choices and regret. I can't blame my abuser any more for what has happened in my life because it was still me making the decision to do those things because I wasn't strong enough to really want better for myself. It's easier to give up than to give all of your energy and effort to something, but that is no excuse. I finally made the decision that I need to change. I'm currently married to an amazing man who always wants the best for everyone, even if he's a little off-putting sometimes, which I would tend to misconstrue as an attack and in turn would become aggressively defensive myself. I've taken him for granted and I've done many things, some very big things, to completely betray his trust and his feelings. We have a son together, he is 3 years old now and he is the light of my life, or at least, I love him as much as I could possibly love someone, but I'm not sure anymore that I truly know what it means to love someone because I've done so much wrong in my life. My son is too young to understand what's going on or what had happened, and for the most part he was never exposed to any of it or directly affected by my choices. I don't want to be this person anymore. I want to know what it's like to be a functioning and motivated human, instead of having no drive to even get out of bed half the time. I need to do this for me, and more importantly for my husband and son. They need me to be a supportive partner and mother. When I'm down I drag them down too. I want to be able to lift us all higher. I want all of us to be happy again.

Hi everyone, I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm 20 years old and live in Dublin. I am very very new to all of this, it has only been about 36 hours since what happened happened. I haven't fully wrapped my head around all of it honestly, let alone effectively talked about it, but being it in a community of people who might understand how I feel is definitely comforting. I just want to thank you all for all the love and support you provide each other and newbies like me everyday. It's a ray of light in a dark situation, so thank you all I look forward to meeting you and finding some resolution together. -Ellen

Hey, I'm new to this forum and a bit nervous about being here. I've been dealing with all the emotions that goes along with what we've all been through that has brought us here on my own. I've found that I've reached a road block to what I can do by myself. I'm 20 so I figured it's time to make a change. I joined this forum to ease into opening up to other people on my own terms. Thanks

Hello, new here! Hoping for some guidance. A few years ago I told a couple of my friends about what my sister's (now ex) boyfriend did to me when I about 8 years old (I'm 18 now) but they just shrugged it off like it didn't matter. I don't trust my family enough to talk to them about it. I have since found a lovely guy of my own but I now I feel dirty knowing I've had sex with 2 guys. He stole something important from me, and I'm considering having a hymenoplasty, and saving sex for our honeymoon. A second attempt to get it right, and have a fresh start. I want to be healed emotionally and was hoping to receive some advice from people who understand, is there any action I can take? I know who he is. Thank you