Thanks all so much for the warm welcome. I appreciate it. I am anxious to get out everything but don't quite know where to start. Maybe you all could give me some advice. I just feel so rushed inside to connect with survivors, I don't want to burden people around me because they have dealt with many years of my "issues". But this time around I am doing things differently and talking about the actual things that happened (in therapy of corse). No matter what steps I take it never feels like enough. I know I messed up lately because after I have been in a social setting with friends, afterwards I just beat myself up about every little thing I think that I did wrong. I'm feeling like everything lately is just wrong and I'm wrong.
Sorry to ramble, but thanks for listening. Thank you all, and thanks Awhisperoftruth for the offer.