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Wow Fall this made me cry but not a bad cry a healing cry. I love you so much and am so proud of you. You so deserve to heal and I am glad you are on that journey. You are such an awesome friend! Totally here to back you on your journey and be your strenght, ear or cheerleader whatever you may need. Today I am the cheerleader!!!!

Hi Abby Good question I am very good at small talk and find a comfort in it while I am with my T, yet when I leave I feel like what the heck did I just pay for? I am not that brave though to be able to just say okay this is what I need to deal with because well it might be what I need to deal with but it scares me so when I have had the choice to talk or not I choose not. I realized though that I had to change this or stop T so I did it slowly by given him a little more insight on how I really was doing at first, like admitting that I was cutting again, or having a lot of bad dreams (whic

I have to say that was on of the most I guess the word is encouraging post i have read because it was so honest full of anger but also full of gratitude and I am sorry that you or any of us had to find this site but honestly you are right Thank God for a place like this to find support. Good luck to you, and remember that sometimes denial is the way we have to survive until we are ready and strong enough emotionally to face what has happened and you have a right to be angry it is one of the stages to healing and you are healing

Sounds like in 16 years you've been through a lot, welcome to a great site it take courage to reach out.

Okay Amylyn question has me thinking, is the reason behind this rule posted somewhere I have not seen? If not maybe we could pin Amy question in the welcome forum so that everyone understand why they need to have 25 posts before they can enter chat?

When I first came to this site I also was a bit thrown off by the fact that I had to post 25 times before I could chat. I did realize it was a guideline that was probably put in place to protect the all of the members. I began to realize it was good for me also because I did not know how bad off I really was when I first joined this site. I mean for me I am always the strong one and always hiding behind my mask of happiness. Reading the posts I began being triggered into even more flashbacks etc. having time to learn how to deal with others experience while facing my own before I started cha

Yes, OMG this is so what I needed to read tonight I am so glad Dochas found this and Curlyrin wrote it, what a powerful message.

Welcome to AS

Welcome Glad you found this place, it has a lot of support to offer!

Hi Rose, I am really sorry that your family (for a lack of a better word) sucked so hard in protecting you as a child and protecting your heart today. I am new here too but I have found it very helpful so far and I hope you do too.

Thanks everyone for the warm welcome

Hi all, yes you got another new member. About me, I am 29 years old and have made it through a lot of abusive situations. As an adult, I have become vigilant to abuse around me and in the efforts of helping those children and young parent stuck in cycles of abuse. This last year I have discovered that I have never yet healed my own wounds. Who would have thought just surviving it once would not do. In this last year I think there are many things that brought me back to my own past. I got sober six years ago and at that time decided to have very little contact with my family but this last ye