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Posts posted by atomicbetty

  1. Hi Atomic Betty

    Sorry you feel so low just now, I can relate to what you say big time, am a mum wanting over-eating smoker too!

    Am just starting to find that if I can allow myself to feel the way I feel then the cravings reduce a little but to let myself feel the way i feel it really helps if there's a bit of support there! Hope your counselling session goes well!

    Have found some of that here, hope you can too

    Best Wishes


    Thanks Blossums! So nice to know im not alone! And good advice - thank you very much. :) So do i - ill let u know i expect! another rant no doubt! x

  2. Hi Betty,

    Im really sorry you are feeling like this, but I can assure you things can and will get better, you just to need stick in there, and I know it is so hard, but you can do it. I agree with you when you say life can be a pain in the Ass, but I also think life is the best thing you will ever do :) it can get really hard sometimes but it also has so much potential for so much reward, and feel goods. Just keep at it, and come here to AS and we will do our best to support you.

    Welcome to AS :hug:

    Take Care,


    Thnaks biggestfoot. Ur right i know. Life is getting better around me its just this - and ill get past this. Thanks for pointing out there is always a ray of light, when im like this it needs ponting out!! thank you :flowers:

  3. I hear where you're coming from... if you want to PM me about this then feel free to do so... I'll be happy to try to help you out... not exactly motherly advice but hey... the testosterone says I can't give that type of advice...

    Hope you feel better ;.;

    Thanks Punksoab, tell u what, when i work out how to pm here maybe i will! lol. U gotta laugh. Such a tired binty head right now. grrrrr. Thanks :)

  4. Im in such a funk at the moment. I cant rest, im comfort eating, so then i feel bad. My spending is outta control again - always spend it on food tho! lol. Good expensive food. U gotta laugh! im getting fatter and unhappier by the second and all i can do is drink, smoke and eat. It cud be worse, oh krikey it can always be worse, but im pretty worried. Now i can hardly sleep at all without medication. This hyper-vigilance thing is waring pretty thin after 16yrs. I have therapy on Wed, and to say im shitting my pants must be an understaement of massive proportions! Im crashing, again. I can feel it. Its like when i start falling from the plane - so far to go till u hit the bottom or the parachute opens, and feeling this low i cant even think positively. Grrrrrrr. lifes a pain in the ass! All i want to do is eat carbs, choclate, smoke, drink, n get laid 247 - oh the quest for endorpins is always a wild up n down ride. Thing is i just wanna stop the ride and get off. An impossibe dream i know, but i feel like im clinging onto the edge with my finger nails and i just dont know how much energy i have left... how long i can last? Heard a quote this week that i was stunned by. It just made so much sense. "Too weird to live, too rare to die". Wow. Also im really missing a mother figure in my life. This is nothing new i always have felt that i was out there on my own, but right now with my daughter growing up you wanna ring ur mum and ask advice when stuff happens. Well mine is an abusive crazy, so no chance. I just wanna mumsie hug and advice. I just wanna feel loved. I have never felt love ever except for my daughter. Weird. Anyway as i said, im in a funk! Its all doom and gloom, and quite frankly i need a good kick up the ass! so feel free! Rant done. Thanks.


  5. Hi there,

    Im really sorry that you have had this abuse so early in your life, you didnt diserve any of it, and I really glad that you found this place, I hope that we can be part of your healing process. Thanks for coming here :hug: and

    Welcome to AS

    Take Care,


    Thank you Biggestfoot. Im slowly starting to realise the truth of that too after years of self blame. Im really glad i found this place too! So many lovely people. Thank you for your kind words x :hug:

  6. welcome to AS and if you are the atomicbetty that goes into depresson room on talkcity, HI, i'm one of the ops in that room and am glad to see you found this place :flowers: i, too, dissociate so if ya ever want to talk, pm me here or (if you are the one from talkcity) catch me there also

    Hey hun! It is me! lol. thanks hun, that wud be great. Nice to not feel like the only one thats nuts for a change! see you soon x

  7. Hi everyone

    Im new and a little nervous, so please excuse this for being rather broad and lacking in detail... especially as this a public forum.

    I suppose a lille bit about myself would be helpful. Im in my early 30's, and have had a pretty abusive life. I have dealt with physical abuse (munchousens by proxy), neglect, emotional abuse, and then when i reached 15 sexual abuse for 3 years. I am in therapy and working on my dissocaition right now. I suppose i am looking for a bit of support at this time. My friends are great, but i dont know anyone who is dissocated, and would like to chat with people who are.


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