Hi there,
I'm Jess. I struggle to talk about my experiences that happened between the ages of around 14-27. For a long time I thought that if I could reframe them in my head as rough/kinky/slutty but consensual I could avoid PTSD. I am 34 now and I can't ignore the effect its having on me. I experience intrusive memories and flashbacks. Especially now that I feel emotionally ready to find a lifelong partner and build a healthy relationship of equals - I am noticing that my fear of intimacy is a big blocker to that.
I am hoping to connect with others, find peace and start seeking/buil