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Good for you. I can relate to feeling isolated and alone with my feelings from my csa…I’m new too, but have definitely found it helpful. I hope you do too.

Here for whatever you need. Glad you’re out and well enough for work, that’s great that you have some support there. Ease back in if you can or maybe work will be a good 8 hours of distraction? Fingers crossed that the new meds help! Here if you need an ear.

Damn, I’m sorry to hear about the meds, so frustrating. I hope you’re as good as can be in the psych ward, been there several times myself…hopefully you can use the quiet time and professionals at hand to you’re benefit. I know the feeling all too well right now that it’s all pointless…but maybe if everyone keeps telling us we’re wrong…Idk, trying a positive spin today…Take care of yourself.

You are definitely not alone “Safe 44”…I’m glad you found this site too, i only found it a week ago and though my emotions are still out of control, I absolutely do not feel as alone. I spent time looking through the forums and found ones that were applicable and spoke to me so much that I felt I wanted to respond-and share…take your time, you’ll find where you’re comfortable. Good for you for making this first post, it’s a big step! Feel free to reach out if you need someone to listen.

It’s crazy how our bodies, minds/emotions can mess with us so badly…I know it isn’t logical to feel you love the person who did this to you and while I cannot explain it, I can tell you that I cried the day my first abuser died, and not just from relief, but I remember (crazily) being sad…also I totally lost it after the teacher who was abusing me moved away…somehow felt like I needed her…go figure…we can’t control our feelings and I’m sure the “grooming” they do makes us feel that way…

I am just turning 50 and was also just diagnosed (last week) with CPTSD…my poor wife has been dealing with my mood swings, anger and dissociation(due to flashbacks) sleepless nights due to nightmares and panic attacks for the better part of two years now…I finally accepted a psychiatrist appointment last week to see if meds can help the symptoms so I can get back on track with processing my abuse with my therapist…I’ve recently just shut down, everything seems pointless lately. I’m glad meds/therapy seem to be helping you, it’s a glimmer of hope to me to read that. friendships are tricky when

I am so sorry this happened to you. I can’t imagine how you feel it having been your father…I have a hard time being angry at my parents for not protecting me (as my therapist tells me they should have, there were lots if signs)…so to have the anger be directly at him, must be that much harder to express/process. I get that you feel some “comfort” in that your sister knows what you went through, I’m sorry it happened to her too, but glad for the support for you. This site is the first time I’m really “talking” to anyone who knows the types of things I’ve been through and it has been helpful, s

Welcome Faithish, I’m new too, and socially awkward for sure! I do find the anonymity of online a bit helpful and when I have posted everyone who has responded has been incredibly kind, welcoming and supportive….I hope your experience is the same. It sucks that we all have to be here, but kind of amazing that we can support each other this way. I hope you find what you need.

Thank you 8888.

New to this site too, not even sure this is where I’m supposed to do my “introduction”…going to be 50 this year and STILL/Again (started back full force 2 years ago) letting this stuff rule my life after it started when I was a little girl, around 4 (my timelines are sketchy) so tired, do not see the point in much these days…hanging on through two therapy sessions a week, medical marijuana and just agreed to a visit to a psychiatrist to try and calm symptoms so therapist and I can continue processing…I have three sons (soon all college age) and a wonderful wife, but I’m just tired of existing

New to this site too, not even sure this is where I’m supposed to do my “introduction”…going to be 50 this year and STILL/Again (started back full force 2 years ago) letting this stuff rule my life after it started when I was a little girl, around 4 (my timelines are sketchy) so tired, do not see the point in much these days…hanging on through two therapy sessions a week, medical marijuana and just agreed to a visit to a psychiatrist to try and calm symptoms so therapist and I can continue processing…I have three sons (soon all college age) and a wonderful wife, but I’m just tired of existing