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Croft

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  1. Croft

    'im not ok' but i cant say it. "im fine" is all i know even though im very open about my mental problems and past

    1. Finchy

      Finchy

      Sitting with you, Croft. ❤️ I can relate. It can be so hard to say the words, "I'm not okay." My gf asks me everyday, sometimes several times a day, how I'm doing. I always say "I'm fine." Even if that isn't the truth. It's just so hard to say otherwise.

  2. Croft

    "it's ok to not be ok" but you're not always ready to say it.....

    i think i'm not ok....

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    2. Doll6

      Doll6

      Sitting with you 

    3. Croft

      Croft

      @Doll6 thank you.. i can really use it tonight.... 😢

    4. Doll6

      Doll6

      I’m sorry you’re struggling so much @Croft

  3. Croft

    Croft is feeling....
    alone and weighed down

    1. Finchy

      Finchy

      Sitting with you, Croft. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Please know you aren't alone. We're here for you.

  4. Croft

    Feeling crushed and alone....

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sending hugs and support. :hug: 

    2. Finchy

      Finchy

      Sitting with you if you'd like. ❤️ Also sending hugs!

    3. Croft

      Croft

      @MeBeMary @mini.finch thank you 🤗. While I'm not physically alone I'm sure it's understood the way disorders/problems you can't/dont want to talk about are.

  5. Croft

    I am a victim of sexual assault... 
     

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    Canada has a broad definition of sexual assault. It includes all unwanted sexual activity 

     

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      U.S. Federal law define it this way, as well. It is an umbrella term that includes all unwanted sexual activity. I'm sure many places across the world have their own definition or lack thereof. Just wish those laws worked better for most. 

      Safe hugs to you, if ok. :hug:  

       

    2. Croft

      Croft

      @MeBeMary i only quoted that because it was from the law. ive had a bad habit of denying myself and have recently started crawling my way out of a long dark tunnel to realize that "this is me" (not that its "me" but that it includes me and i deserve better).
      i wish the law did more for people, anyone thats been wronged for any reason, but sadly its not perfect. i havent gone to court, but this law is helping me in the moment... i didnt want it and that all that matters...

      and thank you for the hugs 🤗

    3. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Those three words, if by law or by morality, does include you. If you need to remind yourself, I'm all for it. You also speak the truth, as you deserved better, as we all deserved better. 

      Perhaps quoting law for yourself will also remind others what it does mean and give them less doubt, as well. 

  6. Croft

    I don't feel like a survivor... 

    1. Finchy

      Finchy

      Sitting with you, Croft. ❤️ You are a survivor. You're here, you've survived.

  7. Croft

    i encouraged it though......

    1. AKB

      AKB

      The blame rests with the person that hurt you. Period. Sending you strength!

    2. Finchy

      Finchy

      As AKB said, the blame is all on the other person that hurt you. It's not your fault. You didn't deserve it. Sitting with you, if you'd like. ❤️ 

    3. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      No, love. You didn't. You did not ask for the pain you are in now...in any way. Sitting with you. 

  8. Croft

    I feel I'm being crushed under my own weight. 

    I feel like the current is pulling me under. 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I'm sorry you are struggling. You are stronger than you know, tho. Keep fighting. 

      Safe hugs, if ok. :hug:  

  9. Croft

    i saw him today...the last time i saw him was around the time i left school years ago. 
    why cant people just disappear 

    1. Xenaspice

      Xenaspice

      Worst feeling. When I saw mine I was grateful I was sitting because my vision got wonky and I felt like I was going to pass out.  

    2. Pink Sky

      Pink Sky

      I'm sorry Croft, that must have been tough. Can't imagine how i'd feel if i saw my perp. 

  10. Croft

    im feeling overwhelmed by life rn and am having trouble finding the correct thread because of it, so ill just post it here..

    "be truthful" as if i wasnt 😢

    1. Finchy

      Finchy

      Sitting with you, Croft. I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed. :( We're here for you. :bighug:

    2. Doll6

      Doll6

      Here for you @Croft. I believe you 

    3. Croft

      Croft

      thank you @Doll6 @Finchy🥰

  11. Croft

    it wasnt that bad...

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sending hugs, if ok. :hug:  

    2. Finchy

      Finchy

      Also sending hugs if you'd like. :hug:

  12. Croft

    sitters would be nice...... 

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    2. Finchy

      Finchy

      Sorry I'm late, but I am sitting with you. ❤️ 

    3. ambergirl

      ambergirl

      sitting with you! ❤️

    4. Croft

      Croft

      @Finchy@ambergirl thank you :)

      @MeBeMary it was even better once i remembered i had chocolate milk haha

  13. Croft

    The kitchen is my home. My safe place. As long as I have a kitchen, a place to get lost in the crunch of veggies under a sharp blade, the sizzle of the meat in a pan, the whirr of appliances, the smell of food flooding my nose, i can be ok. 

    1. snmls

      snmls

      I love this. I'm glad you have a passion that brings you joy. 

    2. Finchy

      Finchy

      ❤️ That is awesome. So glad you love cooking and being in your kitchen so much. :) It's a great comfort.

  14. Croft

    TRIGGER WARNING
    i didnt know where to share this or even why im sharing it. 
    but there is one line that stuck out to me
    "r*pe is not about sex. it's about power and privilege"
    i dont know about the privilege part, but the way he looked at me, the way i felt judged and how he said "i can force you".........tells me enough........ 

     

  15. Croft

    truamaversary 

    so im at another one of these (having 2, one at the beginning of summer and one at the end, really makes summer blow 🙄). 
     

    i havent seen or heard from him in years. and yet still just the thought of him is controlling. thinking about the way he towers over me, how hes stronger than me, i just colipase and give in. because of this thought, the possibility of ever seeing him again scares me. no one, makes me feel the way he does.... no one, sends my insides crashing in the way he does. and i dont know how to make this feeling go away.....

    1. BrightSide

      BrightSide

      Im sorry your struggling. Traumaversaries suck 😞 Sitting with you, if you would like company?

    2. Finchy

      Finchy

      I'm so sorry you're struggling with another traumaversary. :( Sending you lots of support and comfort. Sitting with you, too, if you'd like. ❤️ 

  16. Croft

    Unless you're 100%, it isn't consent 

    1. Finchy

      Finchy

      💯

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