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Everything posted by Croft

  1. Croft is feeling....
    alone and weighed down

    1. Finchy


      Sitting with you, Croft. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Please know you aren't alone. We're here for you.

  2. I am a victim of sexual assault... 


    Canada has a broad definition of sexual assault. It includes all unwanted sexual activity 


    1. MeBeMary


      U.S. Federal law define it this way, as well. It is an umbrella term that includes all unwanted sexual activity. I'm sure many places across the world have their own definition or lack thereof. Just wish those laws worked better for most. 

      Safe hugs to you, if ok. :hug:  


    2. Croft


      @MeBeMary i only quoted that because it was from the law. ive had a bad habit of denying myself and have recently started crawling my way out of a long dark tunnel to realize that "this is me" (not that its "me" but that it includes me and i deserve better).
      i wish the law did more for people, anyone thats been wronged for any reason, but sadly its not perfect. i havent gone to court, but this law is helping me in the moment... i didnt want it and that all that matters...

      and thank you for the hugs 🤗

    3. MeBeMary


      Those three words, if by law or by morality, does include you. If you need to remind yourself, I'm all for it. You also speak the truth, as you deserved better, as we all deserved better. 

      Perhaps quoting law for yourself will also remind others what it does mean and give them less doubt, as well. 

  3. im feeling overwhelmed by life rn and am having trouble finding the correct thread because of it, so ill just post it here..

    "be truthful" as if i wasnt 😢

    1. Finchy


      Sitting with you, Croft. I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed. :( We're here for you. :bighug:

    2. Doll6


      Here for you @Croft. I believe you 

    3. Croft
  4. I have a neutral mental health support discord. It's not specific to this but I tried/am trying to make it a place for everyone.
  5. Unless you're 100%, it isn't consent 

  6. i saw him today...the last time i saw him was around the time i left school years ago. 
    why cant people just disappear 

    1. Xenaspice


      Worst feeling. When I saw mine I was grateful I was sitting because my vision got wonky and I felt like I was going to pass out.  

    2. Pink Sky

      Pink Sky

      I'm sorry Croft, that must have been tough. Can't imagine how i'd feel if i saw my perp. 

  7. I don't feel like a survivor... 

    1. Finchy


      Sitting with you, Croft. ❤️ You are a survivor. You're here, you've survived.

  8. 'im not ok' but i cant say it. "im fine" is all i know even though im very open about my mental problems and past

    1. Finchy


      Sitting with you, Croft. ❤️ I can relate. It can be so hard to say the words, "I'm not okay." My gf asks me everyday, sometimes several times a day, how I'm doing. I always say "I'm fine." Even if that isn't the truth. It's just so hard to say otherwise.

  9. I feel I'm being crushed under my own weight. 

    I feel like the current is pulling me under. 

    1. MeBeMary


      I'm sorry you are struggling. You are stronger than you know, tho. Keep fighting. 

      Safe hugs, if ok. :hug:  

  10. The kitchen is my home. My safe place. As long as I have a kitchen, a place to get lost in the crunch of veggies under a sharp blade, the sizzle of the meat in a pan, the whirr of appliances, the smell of food flooding my nose, i can be ok. 

    1. snmls


      I love this. I'm glad you have a passion that brings you joy. 

    2. Finchy


      ❤️ That is awesome. So glad you love cooking and being in your kitchen so much. :) It's a great comfort.

    i didnt know where to share this or even why im sharing it. 
    but there is one line that stuck out to me
    "r*pe is not about sex. it's about power and privilege"
    i dont know about the privilege part, but the way he looked at me, the way i felt judged and how he said "i can force you".........tells me enough........ 


  12. i do like this one, thank you ive thought about that but (talking about hugs and what you said), sometimes people dont feel comfortable with hugs right now and i cant understand that so i dont want to bother them with it, and ive thought about saying "sitting with you" but i havent been quite sure what that means. to me it feels like it means im here for you if you need to talk, because irl that would typically be how it works and i dont want someone to think that when ive barely been able to handle myself lately. it left me, with not much to say because of these reasons.
  13. i dont really have much to say but sometimes i want to give them a hug or something just to let them know that i read what they said and that i care. but because i dont say much, i just dont say anything. it would be nice if there was a way to kind of say "im here" without actually saying anything. (at least there isnt one that ive noticed)
  14. i encouraged it though......

    1. AKB


      The blame rests with the person that hurt you. Period. Sending you strength!

    2. Finchy


      As AKB said, the blame is all on the other person that hurt you. It's not your fault. You didn't deserve it. Sitting with you, if you'd like. ❤️ 

    3. Iheartcupcakes


      No, love. You didn't. You did not ask for the pain you are in now...in any way. Sitting with you. 

  15. truamaversary 

    so im at another one of these (having 2, one at the beginning of summer and one at the end, really makes summer blow 🙄). 

    i havent seen or heard from him in years. and yet still just the thought of him is controlling. thinking about the way he towers over me, how hes stronger than me, i just colipase and give in. because of this thought, the possibility of ever seeing him again scares me. no one, makes me feel the way he does.... no one, sends my insides crashing in the way he does. and i dont know how to make this feeling go away.....

    1. BrightSide


      Im sorry your struggling. Traumaversaries suck 😞 Sitting with you, if you would like company?

    2. Finchy


      I'm so sorry you're struggling with another traumaversary. :( Sending you lots of support and comfort. Sitting with you, too, if you'd like. ❤️ 

  16. i know that this section is for welcoming people and what im adding here really isnt that, but i thought it would be something good for everyone to see so i wanted to put it in a public place. plus thinking about it, it can kind of be taken as a welcome. as a reminder to everyone, member or not, that it can be ok
  17. it wasnt that bad...

    1. MeBeMary


      Sending hugs, if ok. :hug:  

    2. Finchy


      Also sending hugs if you'd like. :hug:

  18. Feeling crushed and alone....

    1. MeBeMary


      Sending hugs and support. :hug: 

    2. Finchy


      Sitting with you if you'd like. ❤️ Also sending hugs!

    3. Croft


      @MeBeMary @mini.finch thank you 🤗. While I'm not physically alone I'm sure it's understood the way disorders/problems you can't/dont want to talk about are.

  19. honestly i couldnt even tell. little things like that are difficult to get right anyway so its cool 👍
  20. well i should only need a welcome once 😅☺️
  21. @missfrier @MeBeMary @mini.finch @WannaMoveOn thank you everyone for welcoming me. 🙂
  22. here it goes i guess. hi 👋 (deep breath and just say what youre thinking) sorry if its a little all over the place its nothing recent (that i know of) that brought me here. it was years ago now (5-6). i dont even believe it was that bad (because it wasnt) but it was still something i guess. i joined in hopes that by feeling accepted it would help me realize that the way im feeling is valid and in turn help me heal. thats really all i can say for now, my brain feels frazzled.
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