Status Updates posted by Croft
The kitchen is my home. My safe place. As long as I have a kitchen, a place to get lost in the crunch of veggies under a sharp blade, the sizzle of the meat in a pan, the whirr of appliances, the smell of food flooding my nose, i can be ok.
i didnt know where to share this or even why im sharing it.
but there is one line that stuck out to me
"r*pe is not about sex. it's about power and privilege"
i dont know about the privilege part, but the way he looked at me, the way i felt judged and how he said "
i can force you".........tells me enough........
i encouraged it though......
so im at another one of these (having 2, one at the beginning of summer and one at the end, really makes summer blow 🙄).
i havent seen or heard from him in years. and yet still just the thought of him is controlling. thinking about the way he towers over me, how hes stronger than me, i just colipase and give in. because of this thought, the possibility of ever seeing him again scares me. no one, makes me feel the way he does.... no one, sends my insides crashing in the way he does. and i dont know how to make this feeling go away.....
it wasnt that bad...