Finchy

Ah, finally Saturday! I am going to color my hair today, black with pink stripes I think. 

Can't wait for the weekend! Tomorrow, I am moving into my brother's old room which is originally a a living room. He left his two desks behind, which I will build a home office with. I also get to have the family Mac in my room, so I will have a bigger computer to work with. 

I will start with furnishing and then order home from IKEA to give the room that little extra touch. 

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Just submitted my assignment. With only 3 days to write it, I'd say I did pretty well. I hope I'll pass.  

I read the letter my abuser gave me all those years ago.....  I felt some anger today.   I can feel my heart beating. 

I read the letter my abuser gave me all those years ago.....  I felt some anger today.   I can feel my heart beating. 

I wish I didn't exist. 

One small thing...  

I cut my hair spontaneously again. I look like a mixture of suburban mum and 90's grunge look.

I cut my hair spontaneously again. I look like a mixture of suburban mum and 90's grunge look.

Had my first session with my new T on Tuesday. I think it went well! She and I talked about my issues and we decided on what I want to work on first, and she's given me a few worksheets to fill out to help me build a more positive self-image.

Couldn't pass up the opportunity to share this little (big) guy's smile and wave 'hello.'  Hoping it puts a grin onto your faces, too!

Things are ugly at home again. 

I gave myself an early birthday present and went to a spa. Floating around in salty water is ASMR on another level. 

I gave myself an early birthday present and went to a spa. Floating around in salty water is ASMR on another level. 

Took my furry niece on an extra long walkie today. 

I'll be taking a slight break from here, only logging in twice a week. I've become a bit obsessive over and overly attached to this place. Love ya'll.

I've spent the afternoon trying to read old cursive (like 18th-19th C) and browsing virtual archives for documents. I am writing an essay. 

I ordered pizza too. I will maybe sort my clean laundry out later and try to hit the gym. 

Hoping everyone has a great night or at least okay under circumstances. ☀️

Starting to feel a little fatigued looking for a new T... that's one I felt uncomfortable with and two who recommended I look for another one.

Today is my 10th anniversary of joining After Silence!

Wonder if .y week could possible     get worse  than it  has  so far 

Wonder if .y week could possible     get worse  than it  has  so far 

So came home to my parents fighting. 

Old pics of teddy Kins ❤️🫶🏻 ( ignore my face haha )