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taco_lover

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  1. taco_lover

    Does anyone else struggle with the thought that this happened to you,  that this will always be something that happened to you? Or does anyone know if you ever stop feeling like this?

    I know I'm at the beginning of the journey, so maybe I will stop feeling like this further down the road. But right now, it feels like I will never stop being a victim. Even if I move away. Even if I start over, the memories will haunt me. It feels like all of this will always be a thing that happened to me.
    I will have to deal with the fall out of what he did for maybe for the rest of my life, and it's just. I feel like I'm suffocating on the anger.

     

    1. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      Hey @taco_lover I struggle with these thoughts too. I do know there have been times where it has not been in the forefront of my mind during the day. It is always kinda sad when I realize its back. Now I try to appreciate that calmer part of the storm more than the its back part because it always knocks me down. Sometimes feeling the anger was better to me than feeling the pain left behind.

      Sitting with you 

      tulip

    2. taco_lover

      taco_lover

      @tuliptorn I'm sorry you also struggle with these thoughts. But I think trying to appreciate the times without the pain and the anger is good advice... I'll try to do that!

      I hope the thoughts will get less and less the more time passes!

      Thank you for answering and sitting with me, I appreciate it. 💛

      - taco

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