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  1. JME

    JME

    Having a really rough day... I got triggered this morning, and I'm hormonal which makes everything 1000 times worse. Feeling like a waste of space today. I really wish I could turn this broken part of my brain off and just live a normal mentally balanced life. 

    1. BrightSide

      BrightSide

       im sorry you have been triggered, you are really not a waste of space, sitting with you, if you would like? B

    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you and sending positive vibes and warm wishes for your struggles to easy.

      :hug: if ok.

    3. JME

      JME

      I really appreciate it, thank you both <3  

  2. JME

    JME

    If you guys could send some positive thoughts and vibes tomorrow that would be great! First therapy session in a very long time and I'm feeling very anxious about it. I'm going blank on why I even wanted to go in there first place? My brain is going into "you're fine, you don't need help" mode. Any tips? Should I write a list out or just go in and see how it goes? Also, is anyone else having feeling weird about virtual therapy? How do you make a space  a "safe space"? 

    ~ JME 

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    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      I like to make lists, so writing can be helpful. 

      I know...I prefer in person, as well. 

      A lot of times we do need help to heal. I know I do. Maybe your anxiety is causing your inner voice to say that. I know mine does. 

    3. JME

      JME

      I'm sure it's just my anxiety. I always feel like there is so much worse out there, I wouldn't want to take someone else's spot or waste this therapists time. But I'm sure it's just my anxiety, this is for me anyway, I shouldn't be concerned with wasting someone's time or not having enough crap going on to need help. Today will be what it is! I should just be grateful I was able to get in. Whatever happens happens. 

    4. JME

      JME

      Therapy went ok, but I left feeling very uneasy about some stuff. I posted about it in the Therapy forum. Feeling pretty scared, sad, and a bit confused right now. 😕

  3. JME

    JME

    It's tough over here fam... Hubby and I haven't spoke in a few days. I've tried talking to him, ask him to say what's on his mind, tried casual conversation, but he is totally shut down with me because of my bad night the other day. He is offended because sometimes I don't want his help, I just want to talk and vent. He wants to fix things, and he can't fix these things for me, so he shut down and isn't speaking to me at all right now. (I posted in The Aftermath if you want to see what I'm talking about) Feeling really alone and I don't know what to do to help him or help myself right now...

    ~ J 

    *update, he thinks hes ruining my days because he doesnt ignore my shit. If I'm having a bad day he doesnt just leave it alone, he tries to help me through it, which usually ends up with us arguing. So hes done trying..* 

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    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      How are you today, J? I hope things are better. ❤️

    3. JME

      JME

      Thank you for checking in and asking! 

      I'm doing ok, hubby and I are on better terms and I have my first therapy session in years tomorrow. I'm feeling pretty anxious about it, not sure where to start or how to do therapy anymore, lol... It will be odd doing it virtually but anything is better than nothing at this point! 

      Thank you again so much for checking in, I really appreciate it @Iheartcupcakes ❤️ 

       

    4. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      I am glad to hear that. I hope it helps. I have been in therapy for years and I don't know when I will be able to stop, truthfully. Nothing wrong with seeking help! ❤️

  4. JME

    JME

    I have terrible social anxiety and hate meeting new people by myself, doesn't matter the situation, I always have crippling anxiety. But I've wanted to try and push myself to be better with this type of stuff. For the month of May I'm offering free photoshoots in my area to try and meet new people and step WAY out of my comfort zone (staying 6ft+ away at all times!). Today was the first of many, and it went so well. I'm so thankful and wanted to share. It's been a horrible week for me, so this was nice. ❤️ 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I'm so happy you found a way to interact with people in a safe and creative way! I am sure many will like this free service you are offering. Glad the week is ending on a high note for you. :clap: 

  5. JME

    JME

    I'm really tired of dealing with my mental health and trying to balance a marriage. I keep apologizing for things I can't control, making promises I'll change things I can't control to try and make my husband happy. My husband is getting annoyed and frustrated with me for the things I can't change or control...I get it that this is hard and new for him too, he deals with his own mental health and now he has mine to deal with.
    I'm tired of feeling like I'm the problem all the time and feeling like I'm broken. I've been so good lately, positive, productive, calm and at peace and then my hormones messed me all up. Started feeling anxious, panic attacks, tried telling my husband so he would have an idea of where I was at. Wee ended up fighting and he left for a while to get some space. We haven't really spoken since. I've said sorry for my part. I feel guilty for putting him through this and crazy because of my hormones. Feel like I've made big steps forward this quarantine, but took a HUGE leap back this past week. :( 

    1. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      :( I am so sorry to hear the stress is bringing distance between you two. Sometimes with this healing process it’s a forward, backward kind of thing until we find our grounding again.

      i will sitting with you if okay?

       

      sam🖤

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