Thank you for inviting me into your space. I'm a 35 year old survivor who will eventually tell my story when I feel a little more comfortable, but what I was able to read as a guest has really helped me feel like this might be a space where I can feel safe.
I'm just really tired, and I've been trying to work through a lot of my stuff for a long time. I have been really isolated, so I'm trying to find my way to some people who actually understand what this is like. I feel like I'm often walking a path that everyone around me is oblivious to. Since the #metoo movement, I've felt even more isolated and less understood, which has significantly diminished my mental and physical wellness. I have no dislike for the movement itself, and actually expected some relief, so I've been really surprised that it's had this effect on me. It seems that no matter how much visibility there is, everything gets all jumbled up and confused in the public sphere, so I want to come to a more private space to chat with other survivors directly without the whole world watching.
I'm both nervous and excited. I have resisted any sort of group therapy or survivor groups for a long time, for many different reasons. I want to extend my appreciation to everyone for their efforts in making this a supportive space, because from what I've read so far there are some amazing people on here.
A few normie things about me - I'm a scientist. My field of study is cognitive neuroscience and biochemistry. I have two kids, three tortoiseshell cats, and I'm an animist. I love to knit and play really open world video games. I'm hoping to apply to med school in the near future, specifically to train as a psychiatrist, so that I can help other survivors of trauma like us.