I am a 36 year old man. I am a survivor of sexual molestation and rape when i was a lad between 6 and 14 years old. I was referred here by the professional I am seeing to help me deal with 22 years of holding this inside while it ruined 2 marriages and several beautiful courtships. I am not the worlds best communicator, but we all need to start somewhere. I know I am not alone, and I know that the stuff that happened to us is varied as is our reactions to it. It is the coping mechanisms and after experiences and recovery I am interested in discussing, if anyone is willing. I would be happy to discuss it openly in this format or by email if you dont want to make things public. I hope I can forge some great relationships, because i feel vulnerable and scared, like I just came out of the proverbial closet. As is always, your humble servant B "through my rage I see with clarity, I'm damaged goods yet still i breathe. Know that very soon one day, the bell will toll on you and we the children will feel no grief."- Wyldecard "unsolicited"