Hi there. I can’t believe I actually signed up for this. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere, like I am terribly alone. My situations happened so long ago that it feels like they might not even count but yet here I am. I live a very charmed life, I’m successful (in terms of what I deem success anyway) I’m happily married and I’m fine... at least that’s what i tell myself. I just have this awful dark stain on my life that I tried to bury but it came back up and now I’m finally dealing with it. Dealing with tons of shame and guilt and paranoia that I never addressed. It hasn’t been easy but reaching out to other people who might understand and sympathize was recommended, especially since the last time i tried to talk about this I was called a liar and totally dismissed. I don’t know what I’m trying to achieve here. I’m sorry if I’m being vague and weird, I’m just not great at this sort of self disclosure.