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Everything posted by judas10

  1. Welcome Lauren23! We're all here for different reasons, but unfortunately, they are all terrible reasons. The positive message is that you are definitely not alone! So glad you decided to reach out for support. This is the right place! Judas
  2. Abby, So glad you're here and have chosen to look for a voice online. I don't know what you've been through, but it doesn't matter. This is a safe, caring place for those of us that have had to endure the shit that has been done to us. The main thing I want to say is that IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!! No matter what, keep that in mind! So glad you're here!! Judas
  3. I can't fucking sleep! I feel as though I am living out "A Nightmare On Elm Street", and that Freddy Krueger is nipping at my heels. I don't want to go to sleep because of the nightmares I have, but I'm so fucking tired that I can hardly keep my eyes open. Shit! I drink to numb the pain, and to try to go to sleep, but it doesn't work anymore, nor is it a healthy method of coping! I know this! It doesn't actually make any sense for me to not want to fall asleep, yet drink to try to sleep. I know it's fucked up, but that's my reality right now. I'm getting really tired right now, and k
  4. I want to be clear...I self-medicate. I try to numb myself in order to cope with my past. It's not healthy. It's not how I should cope. But, it's my current reality. I don't want to keep this up, nor can I continue to drink like I do and expect my past to go away, or my life to get better. I'm slowly killing myself, and it pisses me off! However, I am currently trying to get into rehab, although my insurance is denying my request (another story)! From the start, I was physically abused by my father. He was an arrogant, religious, physically large man, that thought that sparing the rod, wo
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