This is me reaching out. I’m a survivor. It’s still a little difficult to admit to myself that this happened to me. Triggers have recently become overwhelming after having successfully boxed the “event” away for a very long time. I do feel like I carry some of the blame. I’ve only told two of people of the memories now haunting me. Both have been very helpful and wonderful about everything. My children are aware something happened in my past but they don’t have details. I feel like while my two most trusted have been great support, I need more help than they are able to give me. I have not reached out for therapy, I get paralyzed even considering it. I’ve spent the years since the event in isolation. Which brought me to seek help in an online search, bringing me here. I’ve been told I need to face the reality of what happened. I hope I can do that here.