I feel so alone. I was raped by a boy that goes to my school last year from May-September. After it happened I just pushed it to the back of my mind and was in denial. During that I was having flashbacks every now and again, but they weren't taking over my life. I finally decided to just write out everything that had happened over those months to help me start processing it and my mom just found it last week. She told me how I deserved it and how I should've known better. Since then my flashbacks have been terrible. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't go to school. And I just don't know what to do.
Hi and Welcome to After Silence (AS) @emilyl. I'm sorry for the trauma that brings you here. You have found a safe, supportive community here. Take your time to look around and find your way here. Share when you are ready. I'm sorry that your Mom wasn't supportive. You are not to blame for what happened. I wish you lots of courage as you begin your healing journey.
Welcome to AS. I am very sorry for what happened to you last year. This was wrong and unfair. Something nobody deserves. I am glad you are reaching out here, as we understand the struggles and pain that you deal with. Many times those who haven't walked in our shoes really don't get it. I'm sorry your mom is one of these people and is not supportive. Look around the site and jump in when you feel comfortable. You are not alone. I wish you the very best as you walk this journey of healing.