Hello everyone! I joined about a week ago and I have been exploring the site. I am so grateful to find such an open, supportive online community for survivors. I am truly impressed with this resource; it has been tremendously powerful to read about the experiences of others.
It is easy to feel isolated and alone after abuse, harboring deep-seated self-blame and shame, and many other complicated emotions. I have rarely been able to connect with other people who feel the same way, so thank you all for sharing. It means so much just not to be alone.
A little bit about me. I live in Washington state, USA. I am a twenty-five-year-old undergraduate student. I'm studying liberal arts, and I practice the martial art of aikido as well as Zen Buddhism. I want to teach pre-K through 3rd grade. I love hiking and nature. I'm also interested in activism. I am a very calm, caring person but I struggle with anxiety and depression which often makes it difficult for me to connect deeply with other people, especially in person.
This site might be particularly interesting to me because I used to use online forums as an escape and a way to talk to people during the years that I experienced abuse. That's actually how I met my boyfriend! It is still very hard for me to talk to people about my experiences but I hope with the help of his community that I will be able to process and move forward. I don't want those people to still have power over me and my emotions.
In just the short time I've been reading your posts, I feel a new sense of strength and hope. I hope I can contribute to this wonderful project in service of those who need help!
Sending love and hugs! -violet
PS. I found this image online and it reminded me of you all Roots in gratitude, honoring our pain, seeing with new eyes, and going forth. It is a cycle. You are valuable and you deserve to live your life fully.
Edit: I hope this post is not too sunny. It makes me feel better to express positivity, but I know many of our lives have been filled with anguish and hardship. I am so sorry for what everyone has had to go through to be here. But I also know that if you have found your way here, then you are taking steps toward finding healing. All I mean is that I wish everyone the best on that journey, and I look forward to growing together.