Status Updates posted by NumbandAwake
God I just want to sleep
Holy shit! The wind is so strong I wanna offer it a Snickers! Wind you're a di*k when you're hungry eat a Snickers.
My aniexty needs a notification box and a turn off button. If something is wrong just give me a notification like Facebook or Instagram. Of not *click* off button.
I'm so sick of crying over sexism and people making me feel disgusting for being a man.
No! It is not okay to group men all the same! It also isn't okay to make sexist comments in a place of healing. If you are this way DO. NOT. CONTACT. ME
I have tried everything to sleep and nothing is working.... I hate this.
Coffee is life!
Having a bad night.
If anyone wants to see some of my artwork message me and I will give you the link to it.
So I'm uploading to DeviantArt now hopefully I will do well.
Just a poem I did to cope
Why I am still suffocating?
Holding on to a rope that's hanging by a thread
Living but not alive
It's so hard to let go when you feel so alone
Eyes dried and dead
Missing the old days that were murdered
My heart rotting away
Do you want to know that it doesn't hurt anymore?
Dancing with the devil
My skin cut but no blood falls from within
Nothing more to say
The wind blows and I feel in coming in the air
The worlds collide
Day by day by soul becomes thinner and colder
I feel nothing anymore
Step by step I fade away
Bringing my only friend
A head full of pain
A heart full of shame
A hand full of broken promises
Take it all away
Away from me
Before step by step, I fade, I fade away
Another late nighter.
I had a really horrible break down a few days ago. Tumblr was the cause. I was being attacked for a typo. I accidentally put that trans person aren't included in bisexuality when I meant to say they were. I have a new phone and haven't figured out how to turn off auto correct yet. First I was being attacked for saying that bisexual is an attraction to two genders which it is and then they attacked me for the accidental comment. I even clarified that I had made a mistake and that I am married to a trans man but they called me an abuser, transphobic, told me to kill myself and, that I was disgusting. I almost slit my wrists several times that day. It ended with me deleting my Tumblr. I had over three thousand followers. Two years of hard work down the drain. It was a blog about gemstones and these bullies and assholes didn't have common sense because on my profile there were multiple posts about trans positivity had they only looked and not been snowflakes they would have seen this. They will be sorry because I am one of a kind.