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WannaMoveOn

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  1. I made plant based pasta bolognese for dinner. I will eat candy and color my hair later on. 

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    2. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      I tend to go with natural colors. Like blonde or red...I haven't gone red in a while, so I might try that next. :) 

    3. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @mini.finchI am a natural red/brown head. Join the club! (So you choose between being Elsa or Anna?) 

    4. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Yes haha! Anna or Elsa! 😄 I'm naturally brown. A very boring brown haha. So I like to do blonde highlights or go all red etc. :) 

  2. Today was kinda meh. Geology works fine, but my hydrology calculation went so so. We are having boring weather too, so maybe that adds to it. I´m just taking the rest of the day off (we currently have 6.20 pm). I made myself some nice dinner and will chill a bit before working out. 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Sorry it was kinda meh, there some strange topics but yeah can imagine their boring.

    2. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @Free2FlyWell, they´re not boring but just hard at times. I enjoy my geology classes rn, but calculation within water levels, precipitation, evaporation and stuff doesn´t come natural to me. 

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Yeah I mean we don't really do that where I am but I see what you mean doesn't sounds like something easy for sure.

  3. I had a sick day today. I had my second shot yesterday, and I got a light fever. I tried to study this morning, but then I got hotter and more swollen. I at least managed to eat a little, and now I have baked since I had no sweets in the house. 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hope you feel better soon, glad you managed to get somethings done 👍.

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  4. I´ve cleaned the apartment, picked up a package, posted a letter and am home again. I am very happy and grateful these days. Two anxiety attacks this week, but I made it through. 

    I don´t want a perfect life, aiming for a functioning one is high enough. At least I had more good days than bad ones this week. 

  5. I´ve done my grocery shopping and made a ham, zucchini and cheese pie for the week. I am having some snacks and a movie tonight. 

    1. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Ooh all sounds very nice! 😄 

    2. 8888
  6. Studied from 8 am to 4.20 pm today with a few breaks. I think that is well, considering that I didn´t study rocket science... but rock science :)  

    1. 8888

      8888

      Great job!

    2. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @8888Thank you! I originally planned to work until 6 pm, but my brain stopped at 4.20, but I think that should be okay. 

    3. 8888

      8888

      @WannaMoveOn I'm sure you'll be fine.  :)

  7. The meds the ER gave me yesterday completely knocked me out today. I believe they´re not for me. I am not behind in my classes on anything yet, but I am still stressed out about sleeping away my afternoon. 

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    2. abhaya

      abhaya

      Sometimes it takes a bit for one's system to adapt, but also sometimes things given in the ER are based on the ER/Crisis level of state of mind.  It's not a bad idea to discuss your new meds with a psychiatrist or doctor that knows you well to see if they need adjusting. Either way, sending you support and kindness.

    3. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @mini.finch They´re Lergigans. Thank you for your support! @abhaya Thank you for your support! I think I will save the meds for the next crisis and just stick to my other methods. 

    4. 8888

      8888

      I'm sorry to hear that!  For me benzodiazepines have been helpful, I take Ativan now and have taken Valium and Xanax in the past.  I hope you find something that works for you.  

  8. Just came back home from the ER. I had a panic attack and refused to have another one on my own, so I went in and watched TV for 3 hours waiting to see a doctor. I didn´t get a doctor. I got a nurse and a bag of pills. All well, back home. 

    Please tell me this adult life-thingy gets easier with time. 

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    2. Field8

      Field8

      I’m so glad your home safe. Do you have a referral for a doc? Please take safe care.

    3. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @snmls @mini.finch @Field8@Free2Fly@Maya20Hello you guys. They asked me to contact my house doctor if there was anything else. I didn´t sleep that good tonight, but I will give myself a mental health morning off and then start studying again at 10 am. I appreciate your concern and kind words. 

    4. WannaMoveOn
  9. Going to bed now. First day of uni tomorrow. I just hope this year will be bearable challenging. You know, challenging but not devastating. 

    Sending sunshine to anyone who wants some ☀️

    1. snmls

      snmls

      Good luck with the semester! 

    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Wishing you challenges and good grades! You got this!

       

    3. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Pocket riding with you, Wanna! I hope it goes well. :) I have faith in you.

  10. I had pizza with my childhood friend the other day. We gossiped a bit about our old classmates. One of them is expecting his first baby, one married this summer. Another one moved abroad to be with her partner. 

    When you graduated just 2 years ago and start feeling old ^^

    1. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Wow, so many changes/updates in such a short time! I'm glad you had a nice time with your friend. :) 

    2. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @mini.finch She's a doll. I am happy I have some friends left from my childhood, I had to cut ties with some  of them sadly. 

    3. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      I'm so glad you do, too. :) I really only have one childhood friend left...and she's really my only IRL friend I have. Others that I had have abandoned me. 😕 I'm sorry you've had to cut ties, too. *safe hugs if ok*

  11. I have been supporting my childhood friend for about 2 weeks now. She is going through a bad break up I really feel for her. Life's not been easy on her, and she had one toxic long termed relationship before. This now ex-boyfriend basically threw her out and won't let her collect her stuff. He also changed lockers, which he sadly has the right to do since he owns the apartment. He claims that he gave her the chance to, but he'd pick days he knew wouldn't work with her schedule, and then always cancel days they mutually agreed on last minute. 

    I've encouraged her to go to lawyers and the police by now. He insisted on that he wants nothing to do with her, and yet he's holding onto her possessions like that. 

     

    1. AKB

      AKB

      I'm sorry that your friend is going through this. It's incredibly hurtful that her ex is doing this. It's good of you to be there for her. Sending you both lots of support.

    2. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @AKBThe police is involved now. All I can do is supporting her best I can. 

    3. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @AKB Update, she finally got her stuff! She told her ex she's involving the police, and he'd finally let her in. 

  12. On schedule today, going to the ear doctor and then the bike doctor. My ears might need a cleanse, and my bike needs some work shop. 

  13. I am back from my vacation! Super tired, ironically. We had a busy but nice time. I have done my grocery shopping. I bought a jar of sauerkraut, some bratwurst and potatoes. I miss that dish very much, so I am excited to eat it soon! 

    I am half German, but unfortunately my birth father is the German one, so I try to hold on to that part of my culture best I can on my own.   

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    2. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @mini.finch Which were the Frankenstiens? I hope you are not indicating you're related to THAT Frankenstein 😄 🧟‍♂️

       

       

    3. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      @WannaMoveOn Yes! Haha. We had a Frankenstein way back on my mom's side....but which Frankenstein was it? :lol: 

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @mini.finch I love a good mystery.  Franken is a people's name and "Stein" means stone. My last name has something to do with rock mining. 

  14. Last shift before I go on vacation! Yay 🏖️ Also, I F I N A L L Y will get vaccinated tomorrow, first shot. 

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    2. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Yay! I hope your vacation is a great one, and that your vaccine will go smoothly. ❤️ Happy for you!

    3. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Enjoy your vacation. 😎 

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      That's great news, I'm still waiting on my next shot but shouldn't be long now, but yeah sounds great 👍

  15. Talked to my step father today about my birth father. I described a few things he did every day when I was a kid, and step daddy thinks it was ugly and mind controlling. My inner child woke up with this, telling me she thought it was ugly too. I try to resonate about how birth father could have acted instead. 

    I have eaten oat and raisin cookies, with a side of tea and water melon, and will now try to find a bicycle shop to fix my wheel. 

    Hope everyone has a lovely day

    - W ☀️ 

    1. AKB

      AKB

      This sounds like some great healing progress! Sending you lots of rainbows and unicorns! 💜

    2. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @AKB I'll open a window so they can fly inside. 

  16. Today, I woke up rather late, after talking to my mourning bf at 1 am last night. He's coping well though. I have mixed the day with computer binge and chores. I've done my dishes, walked the dog, looked out for the cat, showered and just put three loads of laundry in the machines.  When I've finished them, I'll probably go grocery shopping. 

    Anyone else having exciting plans today? 🥳

    1. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      Sorry for your bf loss. Please remember to self care emotionally and physically. 

      I am traveling to meet a friend. Other than than that idk.

      Safe hugs.

  17. By boyfriend's grandfather passed away earlier tonight. My bf called me crying. He is now with his parents. I am just so sad for him. This grandfather took the place of his biological father in many ways, always looking out for him as a boy. They did say their goodbyes earlier this summer, but my bf really hoped seeing him just once more. 

    :candle:

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    2. Capulet

      Capulet

      I'm so sorry, Wanna. :(  

    3. Field8

      Field8

      I’m so sorry

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @snmls @Capulet @Field8 Thank you guys. He was high of age and probably wanted to get rejoined with his late wife. It went peacefully, however, as they say, the price of love is loss. Even though I never met him, i have understood that many people cared for him. I appreciate your kind words. 

       

  18. I just biked home and fed my summer cat. I did my 4 hour shift at the charity store and then treated myself with some junk food and ice in town. I don't think about calories this much these days. Being in summer and all, I want to enjoy myself and not speculate too much about my body. 

    What else? T session tomorrow. Hope everyone is well. 

    - W ☀️

    1. snmls

      snmls

      Glad you treated yourself. We all deserve it sometimes. 

  19. I finally did that Bubble and Squeaks. You usually do it of leftovers, but I cook it from scratch since I seldom have boiled potatoes as leftovers. I really recommend it. I threw in some mashed carrots as well. 

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    2. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @BrightSide Do you have a side of eggs or sausages for your Bubble and Squeaks? 

    3. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      I've never heard of this before! Now I need to look it up. I bet it's yummy!

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @mini.finch It's a nice way to get vegetables in your system, and to mash up those left over ingredients. 

  20. I have taken my "summer cat" outside for a while. Her owner doesn't want her to stroll unleashed when she lives with me, so I put her lead around my wrist and sat down in the grass. I usually bring a book, and of course this furry friend would walk across the pages with her soaked paws. 

    I still feel heck nervous about starting uni soon. I tell myself that I have all I need, and that there is no point to start studying hard core in my last time of rest. 

    I will go to my volunteer shift soon,  and then i have counseling over video after work. 

    Wishing you a best day

    - W ☀️ 

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    2. AKB

      AKB

      I wish I had a "summer cat" or really a cat again. I understand about taking kitties for walks too - my girl Sasha always wanted to explore and helpfully walk upon whatever I happened to be reading! You have done so much healing work and I know you will be ready to go back to Uni when it's time to do so. I also would recommend enjoying the most splendid time of the year when there is loads of sunshine and summer fun to be enjoyed! Perhaps you make like your "summer cat" and enjoy yourself as much as possible before you return to Uni?

    3. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @mini.finch Thanks Finch. Lately, I have decided that I will create a minimum work ethic that is actually maintainable. That would be attending all of my classes and rehears 1-2 minutes a day + 3 minutes of what I did last week. Not that I skipped classes last year, but I got overwhelmed.

      I have learned that if you create a smart schedule, you can harvest a lot of free time. Also I've learned, that every person has their own window of productivity. Some get just as much done in 4 hours and some in 6 hours, BUT working beyond that tolerance window can do more harm than good. Meaning, I will find what window works best for me and stick to that the best I can. 

      Stay excellent 

      - W ☀️

       

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @AKB Awn. I can kind of relate. I went from zero pets in the household to my roomie's dog and this temporary cat. They are a hand full, but you just start getting attached despite stolen shoes and scratched skin. 

      Yesh, I spoil myself quite a bit. I spontaneously read some chemistry when I feel like it, but really, I have all fall to do that. Chemistry doesn't start until November for me. 

      It really helps that you value the time I've been spending healing. People ask me what I do for a living or what major I am taking. I am like "well, 2021 was a strange year". I don't want to tell anyone I've done CBT and learned how to take naps. 

      Yes, my summer cat is a life guru. She spends like 10 hours/day on the couch, attacks whatever bothers her (the dog or me), and enjoys her food. 

      Stay excellent 

      - W ☀️

  21. Hello there, @Mission and welcome to After Silence! I am Wanna Reading your post, I want to share my sincere sympathies. I am sorry about your trauma and ongoing pain. We believe you, and we want to support you. The idea of a community is to feel included and lessen the edge of difficult topics. You are encouraged to take your time, and how much you'll share is entirely your choice. Sometimes, it's just nice to know you're not alone. Your will to encourage others is being highly appreciated! This platform offers the opportunity to connect with fellow survivors. You can take pa
  22. @Trauma_Unknown Hello and welcome to After Silence! I am Wanna It's never too late. This community offers support and comfort any time. You don't have to suffer in the dark anymore. Please know that we believe you, and that none of this is your fault. When I read that you've went silent for 20 long years, I feel sorrow and sincere sympathy. However, that you'd finally raise your voice is so inspiring! Now I am in awe It's okay not to tell friends and family right away. We need to take things at our pace. You're right, we're fighters, we're warriors. We all come with our own battl
  23. @irisbun Hello and welcome to After Silence! I am Wanna I am happy you decided to give this forum a shot. Also, keep engaging at your own pace. This is a place to share, vent and relate. Our members form a wonderful support system. Summer can indeed be hard. We might experience "summertime sadness" for different reasons, but getting together and talk is a good initiative. Generally, when we talk about our triggers and issues, it takes the edge off the topic a bit. I am sincerely sorry for your trauma and pain. Please know that it was not your fault, and that we believe you. Af
  24. My boss mailed me today. I will have 3 volunteer shifts a week, and in exchange I'll receive wide training and a reference by the end of the summer. I did not want the pressure of a paid job, even if I applied to some and failed. I believe this is better, so I have something to do but still space to develop and heal. 

  25. @TeaganMT Welcome to After Silence! I am Wanna First off, I am sincerely sorry about your trauma and pain. Please know, that this is not on you. We believe you, and you have nothing to be ashamed about. Whatever your relations are, he had no excuse to force you into something you didn't want to. It's okay if the timeline is a bit blurry, that is completely normal. When something traumatic happens to us, we need to be allowed to process. We need to be able to share our voice, so that we can start our healing journey. You did right by coming here. I am proud of you for reaching
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