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sick today. I asked mum to go to the store with my card and buy a cane of soup. She's making it from scratch... and with toasts! 

I got my grade back for one of my classes. I passed everything except one paper. My teacher has left me with instructions and I'll admit a new version in December. I did get the highest grade for some of my other assignments. 

I only managed to study for a few hours today, ugh. I am so tired tho I could fall asleep right now, but it's not even 7 pm so bad idea. 

Also, I passed my exam from last week. Yay! 

I've submitted my assignments today to be finally graded. I will maybe study some more today. I am watching two fur babies today, hoping they won't fight too much (they are two lady dogs and one is approaching her period, so she's extra fierce). 

Went out with the girls (plus one of their boyfriends) tonight. It was Halloween at the pub. I was a 20's diva with red lip, heavy eye make up, and the classical assessors. We danced and had drinks, and then later burgers. Everyone got home safely. I enjoyed myself. I had no 20's dress, but a night gown did the trick ^^ A guy was just a bit too close to one of my girls, so I put my arm around her so he would make some distance. This other, older guy, made some move at me on the dance floor, but luckily never touched me. An older man tried to get a hug from another of my girls. We had fun despite these casa novas, even if we vented out about it afterwards. 

It was anyhow a nice evening, mixing friends and dressing up. 

Ugh sick today. I have had two bad nights in a row, my sinuses hurt. Btw, my neighbor watches a lot of TV. I woke up at 3 AM last night and they were just about to put on some youtube. And no, I am not a stalker, our houses face each other and they have this big TV right at the window. I have analyzed their TV habits since I was 14   

My mum got angry in the car today. She yells. 

Today is meh mentally. I have struggled to concentrate... I have read lots but I struggle to find important information to highlight. I will probably call it a day and accept that today wasn't my day... I have done what I can, but I am just not on fire today. 

Meh. 

Anxiety kept me up for hours last night. Old frustrations mixed with current worry. I managed to fall back to sleep at 5 am and spent the rest of the day trying to catch up with my studying. 

I have finished off today's agenda, taken a shower and shall spend the rest of my night watching something completely useless. Just trying to push through. Tomorrow is a new day. 

Wish me luck tomorrow! I have scheduled 4 hours of studying and taken on a 7 hour shift. Yay. 

I am waitlisted for "anxiety school now", basically a group therapy program. I actually do not feel the need for therapy right now anyways. Hoping it will take off soon, maybe this will be the "manual" I need. 

I'm hiding in my room. I have the sense mum will yell at step dad any moment and when I am there she usually accused me of conspiring against her if I do not agree with her. 

Cancelling the rest of my day. If you've read my previous post, you know why. 

Anxiety feels like a splitting head ache and I am just so meh rn. I hate this world sometimes. I have people I love in it but I hate the world we have to live in. 

Now I only have to go to the library and hopefully find the books in need for classes, then I am all settled for starting uni again in the fall. 

Hello guys! Just stopping by telling you vacay goes well. After 2 intense days, I am resting more today before a guided tour in the evening. 

Tomorrow, I'm stopping by my old uni city to see friends a couple of days, and then I'll go straight home. 

Just cancelled nurse school. I am going to study history and academic writing come September and then we'll see what's next.  

I'm taking the bus tomorrow morning as a treat, starting 6.45. Ugh, only 3 shifts left. Then I'll go on vacay and prepare for university. I can't believe I've worked all summer. 

Switching up from Elsa to Rapuzel? I am intrigued! Is this because there is this fanfic about Rapunzel being the secretly related to Elsa? 

Went blueberry picking with my friend and her furbaby today. Furbaby decided blueberries are nice and helped herself. I remembered today that me and this friend were supposed to go mini-golfing yesterday. We´re going tomorrow instead, my treat. She said she´ll be using the fact that I ditched her for a guy against me. I told her I will use her teasing me in the sixth grade against her. She let me off the hook. 

Oboy oboy. I was adulting so much today! Pay day, so I transferred money into my savings account and payed my bills. I wrote my insurance company, did my work out, organized my clean laundry, showered... And I also went to see my friend after work before all of this. Busy day. 

And tomorrow, I will get up at 4.45 am again... Vacation could note come sooner. 

Having a day off. I deep cleaned my room, the bath, am doing some laundry and have cancelled a subscription. I will have lunch soon and then do a gentle work out. Then I did what I had on today´s to do list. Really nice when life is just that simple. 

I watched a reel today with a quote going something like "Healing is not about becoming the best version of yourself, but letting the worst version of yourself be loved". That really stuck with me. 

Just a heads up, if my spelling seems off. I use a new browser, the Brave browser, which is great for privacy. However, it was created merely one year ago and I had to install an English spelling correction seperatly. For some reason, it works on every site but AS. When I do welcomings, I run my writing through another site and then copy paste it here. Just so you guys know ^^

Got accepted into my first choices. 

Just booked myself a short vacation on the other end of the country! I have never given myself this, I am excited.