WannaMoveOn

I made plant based pasta bolognese for dinner. I will eat candy and color my hair later on. 

Today was kinda meh. Geology works fine, but my hydrology calculation went so so. We are having boring weather too, so maybe that adds to it. I´m just taking the rest of the day off (we currently have 6.20 pm). I made myself some nice dinner and will chill a bit before working out. 

I had a sick day today. I had my second shot yesterday, and I got a light fever. I tried to study this morning, but then I got hotter and more swollen. I at least managed to eat a little, and now I have baked since I had no sweets in the house. 

I´ve cleaned the apartment, picked up a package, posted a letter and am home again. I am very happy and grateful these days. Two anxiety attacks this week, but I made it through. 

I don´t want a perfect life, aiming for a functioning one is high enough. At least I had more good days than bad ones this week. 

I´ve done my grocery shopping and made a ham, zucchini and cheese pie for the week. I am having some snacks and a movie tonight. 

Studied from 8 am to 4.20 pm today with a few breaks. I think that is well, considering that I didn´t study rocket science... but rock science   

The meds the ER gave me yesterday completely knocked me out today. I believe they´re not for me. I am not behind in my classes on anything yet, but I am still stressed out about sleeping away my afternoon. 

Just came back home from the ER. I had a panic attack and refused to have another one on my own, so I went in and watched TV for 3 hours waiting to see a doctor. I didn´t get a doctor. I got a nurse and a bag of pills. All well, back home. 

Please tell me this adult life-thingy gets easier with time. 

Going to bed now. First day of uni tomorrow. I just hope this year will be bearable challenging. You know, challenging but not devastating. 

Sending sunshine to anyone who wants some ☀️

I had pizza with my childhood friend the other day. We gossiped a bit about our old classmates. One of them is expecting his first baby, one married this summer. Another one moved abroad to be with her partner. 

When you graduated just 2 years ago and start feeling old ^^

I have been supporting my childhood friend for about 2 weeks now. She is going through a bad break up I really feel for her. Life's not been easy on her, and she had one toxic long termed relationship before. This now ex-boyfriend basically threw her out and won't let her collect her stuff. He also changed lockers, which he sadly has the right to do since he owns the apartment. He claims that he gave her the chance to, but he'd pick days he knew wouldn't work with her schedule, and then always cancel days they mutually agreed on last minute. 

I've encouraged her to go to lawyers and the police by now. He insisted on that he wants nothing to do with her, and yet he's holding onto her possessions like that. 

On schedule today, going to the ear doctor and then the bike doctor. My ears might need a cleanse, and my bike needs some work shop. 

I am back from my vacation! Super tired, ironically. We had a busy but nice time. I have done my grocery shopping. I bought a jar of sauerkraut, some bratwurst and potatoes. I miss that dish very much, so I am excited to eat it soon! 

I am half German, but unfortunately my birth father is the German one, so I try to hold on to that part of my culture best I can on my own.   

Last shift before I go on vacation! Yay 🏖️ Also, I F I N A L L Y will get vaccinated tomorrow, first shot. 

Talked to my step father today about my birth father. I described a few things he did every day when I was a kid, and step daddy thinks it was ugly and mind controlling. My inner child woke up with this, telling me she thought it was ugly too. I try to resonate about how birth father could have acted instead. 

I have eaten oat and raisin cookies, with a side of tea and water melon, and will now try to find a bicycle shop to fix my wheel. 

Hope everyone has a lovely day

- W ☀️ 

Today, I woke up rather late, after talking to my mourning bf at 1 am last night. He's coping well though. I have mixed the day with computer binge and chores. I've done my dishes, walked the dog, looked out for the cat, showered and just put three loads of laundry in the machines.  When I've finished them, I'll probably go grocery shopping. 

Anyone else having exciting plans today? 🥳

By boyfriend's grandfather passed away earlier tonight. My bf called me crying. He is now with his parents. I am just so sad for him. This grandfather took the place of his biological father in many ways, always looking out for him as a boy. They did say their goodbyes earlier this summer, but my bf really hoped seeing him just once more. 

I just biked home and fed my summer cat. I did my 4 hour shift at the charity store and then treated myself with some junk food and ice in town. I don't think about calories this much these days. Being in summer and all, I want to enjoy myself and not speculate too much about my body. 

What else? T session tomorrow. Hope everyone is well. 

- W ☀️

I finally did that Bubble and Squeaks. You usually do it of leftovers, but I cook it from scratch since I seldom have boiled potatoes as leftovers. I really recommend it. I threw in some mashed carrots as well. 

I have taken my "summer cat" outside for a while. Her owner doesn't want her to stroll unleashed when she lives with me, so I put her lead around my wrist and sat down in the grass. I usually bring a book, and of course this furry friend would walk across the pages with her soaked paws. 

I still feel heck nervous about starting uni soon. I tell myself that I have all I need, and that there is no point to start studying hard core in my last time of rest. 

I will go to my volunteer shift soon,  and then i have counseling over video after work. 

Wishing you a best day

- W ☀️ 

My boss mailed me today. I will have 3 volunteer shifts a week, and in exchange I'll receive wide training and a reference by the end of the summer. I did not want the pressure of a paid job, even if I applied to some and failed. I believe this is better, so I have something to do but still space to develop and heal. 

So apparently there was a man sneaking around my campus yesterday. He has been peeping in windows and following two different girls, asking them private questions and offering rides. One of the female students contacted the police.  This was at the bright day in the afternoon. What is wrong with people? I am happy I'm going away for a few days. 

Fever and symptoms finally wearing off. Taking a slow weekend so I'll be ready for my internship next week. Also, I will be having a cat at my place for a few weeks as I signed up for "baby sitting" it. I'll see it as my summer support animal. 😺

I having my "honey moon phase" with my fever right now. It usually raises in the evening, peaks in the middle of the night and declines during the early morning hours. The afternoon is my best time, even though I need to be careful and rest as well. I did some chores and finally managed to eat a proper meal. With a little luck, my antibiotics kick in today, or sometime tomorrow. 

Hello everybody, especially thus patientally waiting for my response on DM:s or contents. 

I have not forgotten about you, I am just sick. I will be for some more time according to my doctor. Do not worry, I have my fridge stocked, all medication I need and will only get better from here. 

I just wanted to inform you so I don't come off as purposely distant. I am just fully occupied to eat ice cream, sleeping and keeping my mum updated. 

All best

- W ☀️