I have had so much trauma that I really don't know how to express myself to anyone outside of a therapy session. I am 36 years old and my last trauma was almost 20 years ago. I have kept it all inside even in therapy until now and I am hoping that all the brave survivors here will help me really find my voice. I have always internalized and blamed myself and that has led me down the path of mental illness. Current events have made me realize I can't be silent anymore.