Single Status Update
Feeling very unlike myself tonight. No idea why. Could use a friend.
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THANK YOU guys for your kind words and messages and for sitting with me last night.
I do NOT ask for help often. I'm not used to doing so. In the past, I was taught and 'conditioned' to deal with my emotions and moods differently. Whenever I feel these 'emotional overloads,' this (untrue) feeling of sharing being equivalent to showing weakness kicks in and I am usually quicker/more likely to suck it up and let it sit and fester instead. But this is not happening anymore; part of my personal growth process is to (slowly) learn to allow others to be able to offer comfort, advice or support when needed. More often than not, healing is a grueling uphill battle, and it's too easy to forget that there are others who are on that same hike. Slowly, I am discovering the benefits of allowing others to stand behind me and give that encouraging push here and there - I WILL keep climbing and I WILL make it to the top of this hill, eventually.
I'd also like to shout out to a couple of others not listed here who also took the time out of their evening to reach out and talk to me. You guys have NO idea how much it helped to know that you were there. Thank you, too.
I'm feeling a little less unsettled and more coherent today. I did manage to sleep for a little while, too, so the headache has lessened although it's not completely gone, yet. I'm going to respond to a couple of PMs, soak in the bath and will be back later.