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LooksLikeRain

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About LooksLikeRain

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    Lotus Warrior

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    Female
  • Location
    NH
  • Interests
    I love art and animals.

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  1. Crying. I feel broken.

    1. pattyr

      pattyr

      I can sympathize.  Try to take care of yourself the way you would a child who went through your horrendous experiences.

  2. I am not okay right now...

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you, Rain. :hug: if ok.

  3. Thank you for the support. Yes, I'm very lucky he was with me, and he has been supportive through all this. I didn't think I'd ever see him, but it was just a slim chance. I'm just glad it wasn't my attacker or else it might have been ugly! I'm sorry you have to see their faces. They shouldn't hate you for somebody else's actions. I know I'll probably be getting the same looks when court rolls around.
  4. So... Friday night, my boyfriend and I went to the movie theater for the 9pm showing of Deadpool 2. The theater is in our town, which made it a convenient location. We went in to our theater, and as we were looking for the seats, I saw my former best friend's brother. M. He was also a former best friend... As we walked by their aisle and towards the back, I gripped the back of my boyfriend's shirt. We got into an aisle and took our seats, and my boyfriend turned around and looked at me. "What's the matter?" I could only stare at the back of his head. I just felt overwhelmingly hurt a
  5. So I was curious and creeped on my former best friend's instagram... I don't know why I thought anything would be different. I look on there, in hopes to see that one day, that they would break up... But no, she still chose to see him, the monster who sexually assaulted me. She still is with me, and I'm angry... It's upsetting, and it makes me physically ill to my stomach... But I can't wish bad on them, because the court date is coming up, and all I can do is be hopeful that everything will go in my favor. Maybe then, they'll see...
  6. I'm guilty of being insecure.. I know I am. My boyfriend knows I am. Yesterday, I texted him, "I can't do this anymore." He texted me that we should talk in person. We met up at a sushi restaurant.. I thought he was gonna buy me dinner, but come to find out, he wanted to talk there over some drinks. I told him this wasn't the place for it, because I could end up crying.. So after we finished our drinks, we went out to his car to talk. I talked about my problem with the girl on his FB, he told me that I am the one he's with, and that the only thing we fight about in the 7 months we'v
  7. We have been together for 7 months... and yet, he can't say the "L" word. I slipped during a Christmas party in a drunken stupor... and he told me it was too soon. I said it, again, to him around January. Again, he said it was too soon. He told me, "I can't say it until I actually feel it. I can't even comprehend such a word, there's no way I can just throw it out so easily." I brought it up to him last month, how he hasn't said it, and he accused me of trying to pressure him into saying it. His actions say it, and I know the ol' saying "actions speak louder than words"... bu
  8. I am so proud of every single one of you. <3 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      :blush:  , I think we should all be proud of ourselves.

    2. Iheartcupcakes
  9. I think I'm going to be alright

    1. elisand
    2. LooksLikeRain

      LooksLikeRain

      thank you. I am ok :) *hugs*

  10. wtf is wrong with me?

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      kinda same here, tried any distraction kinda methods, sometimes I twirl a pen around my fingers.

       

    3. LooksLikeRain

      LooksLikeRain

      I've been playing games on my phone and computer and playing with a bug bite on my hand.

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Oh , I'm sorry :( 

  11. Sometimes... my inner child comes out in a voice. I used to do it a lot but then my last boss started stopping me.... I never realized how often I made that childish voice until she started snapping at me... Now, it kinda has stopped... My inner child is very confused, and just wants to sit and draw and be artistic. My poor little girl... That's all she ever wanted to do... sit on the floor with a pile of blank pieces of paper in front of her and a sharpened pencil and just let the night melt away as she drew....
  12. Hello to all the brave warriors out there. I hope you're rising from the ashes and spreading those wings. Have a safe and healthy Easter <3

  13. Thank you all for your sweet, encouraging words. I'm starting to get teary eyed lol I am so glad I found this website already. In a way, it's sad that I'm not alone, but in a way, I am glad you're all here. I hope you all remember that you're strong, as well. I'm fighting for myself, as well as all of you.
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