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cirrus

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About cirrus

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    Nonbinary (they/them)
  • Birthday 05/26/1998

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  1. Don’t wanna be alone

    I'm sorry you've been struggling so much. I'm here if you want to talk.
  2. Anxiety Shakes

    Today I had to call my insurance company to sort out some claims they denied. They denied them because they didn't have the information about my last insurance policy to verify that it ended. There's some paperwork going out to get them that info, and then the claims should be approved. It was OK as phone calls go - mostly just answering questions as asked. But I've always struggled with phone calls, and by the time I hung up I was ice cold, shaking, nauseated, and breaking out in cold sweats. I couldn't sit still for hours after. Maybe next week this'll be sorted out and I can call and make an appointment with a psychiatrist. The nightmares have been getting worse. The flashbacks were really intense and near constant there for a bit; they've eased up a little now but I'm still getting them daily. And spending the rest of my time deathly tired and with my brain off in space. I hope they'll do something to help. I've never really had a doctor believe me before. Today was the first day in weeks that I had any energy at all, and that was because of how badly this phone call set off my anxiety. One day last week I was laying in my kitchen floor with all the lights off when my dad got home from work, because cooking 2 steaks and some rice took all my energy but I wanted to be close enough to know if anything boiled over or whatever, while I was waiting on him. Even getting out of bed to go downstairs and watch TV is a big deal lately. I can't keep living like this, unable to do anything for myself. Something has to give soon.
  3. It's been a rough day. Hope everyone else is doing OK.

    1. snmls

      snmls

      I'm sorry its been a rough day for you cirrus.  I hope things get better soon. 

    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      been the same for me, getting sick of rough days.

      hope things get better. :) 

  4. It's an emotional breakdown  kind of night.

    1. Survive95

      Survive95

      If you need or want to talk I’m here! 

      Sitting with you if okay?!?!

  5. Looking for a place to tell my story

    Thank you silentg for stopping in to say that I have a long way to go but I'm getting there. If you guys have any questions, feel free to ask! I did get to put my post up over in Share Your Story, too, if anyone is curious.
  6. Having a break down

    I'm sorry that things feel so overwhelming right now and everyone is putting so much pressure on you. It sounds like you need more supportive and genuinely caring people in your life. I know how lonely, scary, and painful it can be to go without, and I hope you find some soon. I'm here if you want to talk about it.
  7. Looking for a place to tell my story

    Thanks everyone for your kind words and assistance. I'll spend some time getting more well-acquainted with the site then, I suppose. I'm glad everything is so protected here.
  8. Hi, I'm cirrus. I'm 19 and identify as nonbinary. It's coming up on one year since everything happened. I'm looking for a place to tell my story and hopefully find others with similar experiences. Since I'm making this post anyway, I have a quick question: where would be the appropriate forum to post my story? It could be very triggering and I wouldn't want to upset anyone.
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