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Brooklyn24

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  1. “I’m sorry to the people I hurt, while I was hurting”

  2. And I can't fall asleep without a little help
    It takes a while to settle down
    My shivered bones
    Until the panic sets

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  3. In the midst of deep sorrow
    I see Your light is breaking through
    The dark of night will not overtake me
    I am pressing into You

    1. Poppy_

      Poppy_

      I love that song! I played it on Piano last night :throb: in fact, I was probably playing it and singing at the same time you posted this! 

  4. 1:24am. Waiting for pills to kick in. Hatred runs through my veins. For him, for them, most sadly, for me. I think I’ll be okay this time. Happier days; terrifying nights. I was a victim of rape and childhood abuse for 7 years. I’m not wanting sympathy, I want understanding. I’m not the only one, no but that cuts deeper. We are all struggling. I don’t know why I’m going off tonight. Tomorrow will be better. It will be. Maybe, right?

  5. All my effort is currently exhausted by trying to maintain my high-functioning public persona

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      sorry to hear your feeling exhausted with it all.

  6. Can someone, anyone please talk with me???? I’m panicking, I feel like I’m dying my heart is exploding. I have no where to turn 😭😭😭 idk what I need, I really just don’t know

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      With your mind find something positive to you and think really hard about it perhaps a dream a good dream, how it would feel if it was happening right now.

    3. pattyr

      pattyr

      Sitting with you @Brooklyn24and I am sorry you are feeling so awful.  I know a panic feeling something like you describe and it's a terrible feeling.  You're not alone.

    4. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      I am so sorry. I know that feeling is unbearable. I hope you are feeling okay now. 

  7. Drowning in a pool of self pity. Don’t mind me

    1. Unikitty

      Unikitty

      #same sorry girl

  8. Got out of inpatient and learned a lot. Gunna be in the partial hospital program and gunna give it my best shot. Really wanna get better 

  9. have I slept in 3 days? No

    have I eaten in 3 days? No

    am I doing absolutely great a majority of the time? Kinda 

    basically..... I am in such a fxck it mood like nothing even matters nothings even real yeeeeee

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      I am so sorry you are having trouble sleeping or eating. Maybe you could talk to a doctor about something to help? I had to take sleeping pills for a while. I probably still should be...

  10. I actually gave my medicine a try, took it for over a month every day and I’m shocked... it might be working???? Who woulda thought. I’ve been feeling okay again

    1. 8888

      8888

      Happy to hear this.  My experience has been it can take some time for medicine to kick in so maybe it's just starting to work.  I hope it continues.

    2. snmls

      snmls

      I'm glad you gave your medication a try.  Adjusting to medication can take time.  

  11. I got my injection and feel so defeated. I tried telling my bf my thoughts but he disregards like always. I know this is wrong but i asked him why he doesn’t see the red flags, why do I feel so alone in this... he said he does see the flags but he ‘believes’ in me 😂 hahahahahahahahahah

     

  12. I hate myself. 

    I am vile

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      You are not. You are hurting. :(

      Sitting with you.

    2. Bluesclues
    3. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      ditto to @MeBeMary :throb:

      There is nothing vile or deserving of hate about you. :hug:

  13. I really can’t take being a bipolar paranoid person anymore. Like... relief please 

     

    knowing my thoughts aren’t true but yet still believing they are ? I know.... makes a lot of sense 

  14. I spontaneously went to the beach with a friend today and like... I didn’t have that much anxiety about being surrounded my people... a little but I was ok.

    1. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      Glad you had the pleasure of being okay.🌸

  15. I’m getting married in less then 2 weeks!!!! I’m marrying my best friend and I can’t fricken wait. 

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    2. Ghost of me

      Ghost of me

      @Brooklyn24Congratulations! Wishing you all the best.

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Congrats!  I'm happy for you.  :)

    4. patriciag

      patriciag

      Congrats you deserve all the happiness 

  16. I’m proud of you. I miss talking to you. Please call when can. My number changed temporarily; I’ll text you the new one, you won’t see this for awhile. You really hep Ed me. I’m greatful. Thank u. Much care xx 

  17. I’m scared. I feel like I need to die before my parents. I don’t want them to die first. But I don’t want them to have to bury me because that’s isn’t right either. In a perfect world, we’d all die at the same time

    1. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      I totally get this feeling. I can’t bear the thought of losing my parents ever. I’d rather die first. But I’d hate to put them through that.....

    2. Beekey

      Beekey

      Try not to think of bad things that cause you stress and to worry. I understand that fear of death though - I think everyone can relate to that. 

  18. I’ve lost all my friends. They are all gone. I have no one to vent and talk to when these thoughts are racing. I’ve been awake 3 days straight. I’m desperate for a conversation with someone but my parents are off limits and my boyfriend is already showing weird signs concerns but not saying so I can’t talk to him. I feel truly alone

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    2. Capulet

      Capulet

      Thinking of you, @Brooklyn24 - you have us.  100%.  Please let us know how you're doing.  We're all thinking of you. By the way, I'm having some awful trouble with sleep lately, so if you're up late, give me a shout.  Sending safe, healing hugs your way.

    3. Brooklyn24

      Brooklyn24

      Thank you everyone so much xx

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Yw hope your feeling better friend , safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  19. isolating, can’t sleep. No one to tell this to, no one to take this weight. I have destroyed everything 

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    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      You haven't destroyed everything. We are here for you to talk to :throb:

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    4. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Hoping you are doing ok, sending safe hugs if that's alright with you :throb::hug:

  20. It’s 1am breakdown time

  21. Made a fool of myself in front of a therapist, embarrassed to exist. Want to give up

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Many safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      You are not a fool, you are strong and doing your best.  Hugs if ok❤️

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Hey, I just saw your status update on the site. Look, your therapist sees all kinds of people with personal struggle on a daily bases. I don't know what you mean with "made a fool of yourself", but therapy is supposed to be a safe place and your T is educated to handle all sorts of reactions and acting outs. Take care

  22. Made it 20 mins at day hospital before crying and leaving. F anxiety. I can’t do this

    1. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      You made it 20 minutes! You have been through a shit ton!! Let your body grieve and express those emotions :hug:

    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  23. Needing someone to talk to. But don’t want to be a burden. I don’t know

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hey , here if you still need to talk. Your not a burden :) .

  24. Oh what did I get myself into 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

    I can’t with myself like geeeezzzzz

  25. Police were just at my house, it’s midnight and they woke my parents. I can’t believe this, I trusted you ); couldn’t tell the police officer the truth even tho he was nice.. now my parents are sad and I’m even worse off

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Goodness. I am so sorry. 

    3. DukeDorito

      DukeDorito

      Are you alright? Sounds rough.

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