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Brooklyn24

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  1. Brooklyn24

    Can someone, anyone please talk with me???? I’m panicking, I feel like I’m dying my heart is exploding. I have no where to turn 😭😭😭 idk what I need, I really just don’t know

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      With your mind find something positive to you and think really hard about it perhaps a dream a good dream, how it would feel if it was happening right now.

    3. pattyr

      pattyr

      Sitting with you @Brooklyn24and I am sorry you are feeling so awful.  I know a panic feeling something like you describe and it's a terrible feeling.  You're not alone.

    4. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      I am so sorry. I know that feeling is unbearable. I hope you are feeling okay now. 

  2. Brooklyn24

    I’m getting married in less then 2 weeks!!!! I’m marrying my best friend and I can’t fricken wait. 

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    2. Ghost of me

      Ghost of me

      @Brooklyn24Congratulations! Wishing you all the best.

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Congrats!  I'm happy for you.  :)

    4. patriciag

      patriciag

      Congrats you deserve all the happiness 

  3. Brooklyn24

    I’ve lost all my friends. They are all gone. I have no one to vent and talk to when these thoughts are racing. I’ve been awake 3 days straight. I’m desperate for a conversation with someone but my parents are off limits and my boyfriend is already showing weird signs concerns but not saying so I can’t talk to him. I feel truly alone

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    2. Capulet

      Capulet

      Thinking of you, @Brooklyn24 - you have us.  100%.  Please let us know how you're doing.  We're all thinking of you. By the way, I'm having some awful trouble with sleep lately, so if you're up late, give me a shout.  Sending safe, healing hugs your way.

    3. Brooklyn24

      Brooklyn24

      Thank you everyone so much xx

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Yw hope your feeling better friend , safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  4. Brooklyn24

    isolating, can’t sleep. No one to tell this to, no one to take this weight. I have destroyed everything 

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    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      You haven't destroyed everything. We are here for you to talk to :throb:

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    4. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Hoping you are doing ok, sending safe hugs if that's alright with you :throb::hug:

  5. Brooklyn24

    Made a fool of myself in front of a therapist, embarrassed to exist. Want to give up

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Many safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      You are not a fool, you are strong and doing your best.  Hugs if ok❤️

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Hey, I just saw your status update on the site. Look, your therapist sees all kinds of people with personal struggle on a daily bases. I don't know what you mean with "made a fool of yourself", but therapy is supposed to be a safe place and your T is educated to handle all sorts of reactions and acting outs. Take care

  6. Brooklyn24

    Police were just at my house, it’s midnight and they woke my parents. I can’t believe this, I trusted you ); couldn’t tell the police officer the truth even tho he was nice.. now my parents are sad and I’m even worse off

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Goodness. I am so sorry. 

    3. DukeDorito

      DukeDorito

      Are you alright? Sounds rough.

  7. Brooklyn24

    There’s just to much that time cannot erase. 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      it just takes awhile, while it may not be erased completely perhaps just focus on the present friend.

    2. Capulet

      Capulet

      You are right about that.  We can, however, remember that while the past cannot be erased, everything we do can change our future. Please try to focus on that.  Sending you positive vibes and good thoughts.  :throb: 

    3. Brooklyn24

      Brooklyn24

      Thank you xx

  8. Brooklyn24

    I hate myself. 

    I am vile

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      You are not. You are hurting. :(

      Sitting with you.

    2. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      :hug:

       

    3. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      ditto to @MeBeMary :throb:

      There is nothing vile or deserving of hate about you. :hug:

  9. Brooklyn24

    Trying to find a therapist like my old one is so hard. I’m never gunna get through anything );

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Perhaps finding a duplicate of your last T isn't the way to go. Yes, you need one that you can click with and will know how to help you along. You deserve to heal, so keep fighting. :hug: 

    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hope you can manage to find one that can help.

    3. Moongoddess

      Moongoddess

      I totally relate to this. After seeing my therapist for over 5 years, it was hard to move and have to find a new one that lived up to how much she helped me. I did find somebody new, though, and although she's different she is still amazing. I just had to have an open mind. It did take me a little while to realize I was trying to duplicate my old T and to set aside expectations.

  10. Brooklyn24

    Think I might try to go to a meeting tonight. If I can work up the courage

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      your strong and you can do this will be here :) 

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      If it makes you feel better, I know you can :) 

  11. Brooklyn24

    I’m scared. I feel like I need to die before my parents. I don’t want them to die first. But I don’t want them to have to bury me because that’s isn’t right either. In a perfect world, we’d all die at the same time

    1. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      I totally get this feeling. I can’t bear the thought of losing my parents ever. I’d rather die first. But I’d hate to put them through that.....

    2. Beekey

      Beekey

      Try not to think of bad things that cause you stress and to worry. I understand that fear of death though - I think everyone can relate to that. 

  12. Brooklyn24

    have I slept in 3 days? No

    have I eaten in 3 days? No

    am I doing absolutely great a majority of the time? Kinda 

    basically..... I am in such a fxck it mood like nothing even matters nothings even real yeeeeee

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      I am so sorry you are having trouble sleeping or eating. Maybe you could talk to a doctor about something to help? I had to take sleeping pills for a while. I probably still should be...

  13. Brooklyn24

    Tonight just seems almost impossible to get through 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you, if it helps. :hug: 

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      I'm so sorry. I hope the morning brought relief in a new day. :throb:

  14. Brooklyn24

    Made it 20 mins at day hospital before crying and leaving. F anxiety. I can’t do this

    1. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      You made it 20 minutes! You have been through a shit ton!! Let your body grieve and express those emotions :hug:

    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  15. Brooklyn24

    Today I was happy. And I wasn’t even on drugs. I was naturally happy and I can’t believe it. I had energy and motivation but now it’s 12 am and I still can’t sleep. Have day hospital at 830am. I hope I feel happy tomorrow too. 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      glad you were able to feel happy naturally :) .

    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      I hope that feeling lasts for you a long time and comes back often.

  16. Brooklyn24

    I actually gave my medicine a try, took it for over a month every day and I’m shocked... it might be working???? Who woulda thought. I’ve been feeling okay again

    1. 8888

      8888

      Happy to hear this.  My experience has been it can take some time for medicine to kick in so maybe it's just starting to work.  I hope it continues.

    2. snmls

      snmls

      I'm glad you gave your medication a try.  Adjusting to medication can take time.  

  17. Brooklyn24

    And I can't fall asleep without a little help
    It takes a while to settle down
    My shivered bones
    Until the panic sets

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  18. Brooklyn24

    Thinking about talking to someone on the rainn online hotline but the wait is long and I am so on edge. Uhggg this is a shit show

    1. Kmkz

      Kmkz

      Hope you managed to get through

  19. Brooklyn24

    Drowning in a pool of self pity. Don’t mind me

    1. Unikitty

      Unikitty

      #same sorry girl

  20. Brooklyn24

    All my effort is currently exhausted by trying to maintain my high-functioning public persona

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      sorry to hear your feeling exhausted with it all.

  21. Brooklyn24

    Tonight’s logic- can’t sleep because I’m depressed; depressed because I can’t sleep. It’s 5am 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Damn , sorry to hear you can't sleep , I've had one of those type of nights before.

      hope you manage to sleep soon.

  22. Brooklyn24

    “I’m sorry to the people I hurt, while I was hurting”

    1. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      :throb::hug:

  23. Brooklyn24

    Needing someone to talk to. But don’t want to be a burden. I don’t know

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hey , here if you still need to talk. Your not a burden :) .

  24. Brooklyn24

    In the midst of deep sorrow
    I see Your light is breaking through
    The dark of night will not overtake me
    I am pressing into You

    1. Poppy_

      Poppy_

      I love that song! I played it on Piano last night :throb: in fact, I was probably playing it and singing at the same time you posted this! 

  25. Brooklyn24

    so much happening, overwhelmed. Shook like a leaf all day, haven’t eaten, haven’t slept. I am scared, I am hearing things and my paranoia is killing me. Am OK. But not. 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you, Brooklyn. Sorry it is so difficult right now.

      :hug: 

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