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Brooklyn24

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  1. Trade my joy for my protection 

  2. Made a fool of myself in front of a therapist, embarrassed to exist. Want to give up

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Many safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      You are not a fool, you are strong and doing your best.  Hugs if ok❤️

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Hey, I just saw your status update on the site. Look, your therapist sees all kinds of people with personal struggle on a daily bases. I don't know what you mean with "made a fool of yourself", but therapy is supposed to be a safe place and your T is educated to handle all sorts of reactions and acting outs. Take care

  3. isolating, can’t sleep. No one to tell this to, no one to take this weight. I have destroyed everything 

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    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      You haven't destroyed everything. We are here for you to talk to :throb:

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    4. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Hoping you are doing ok, sending safe hugs if that's alright with you :throb::hug:

  4. Trying to find a therapist like my old one is so hard. I’m never gunna get through anything );

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Perhaps finding a duplicate of your last T isn't the way to go. Yes, you need one that you can click with and will know how to help you along. You deserve to heal, so keep fighting. :hug: 

    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hope you can manage to find one that can help.

    3. moongoddess

      moongoddess

      I totally relate to this. After seeing my therapist for over 5 years, it was hard to move and have to find a new one that lived up to how much she helped me. I did find somebody new, though, and although she's different she is still amazing. I just had to have an open mind. It did take me a little while to realize I was trying to duplicate my old T and to set aside expectations.

  5. Sometimes I wanna die even when I’m happy too 

  6. Oh what did I get myself into 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

    I can’t with myself like geeeezzzzz

  7. so much happening, overwhelmed. Shook like a leaf all day, haven’t eaten, haven’t slept. I am scared, I am hearing things and my paranoia is killing me. Am OK. But not. 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you, Brooklyn. Sorry it is so difficult right now.

      :hug: 

  8. It’s 1am breakdown time

    1. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      Safe hugs :hug:

  9. I spontaneously went to the beach with a friend today and like... I didn’t have that much anxiety about being surrounded my people... a little but I was ok.

    1. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      Glad you had the pleasure of being okay.🌸

  10. I actually gave my medicine a try, took it for over a month every day and I’m shocked... it might be working???? Who woulda thought. I’ve been feeling okay again

    1. 8888

      8888

      Happy to hear this.  My experience has been it can take some time for medicine to kick in so maybe it's just starting to work.  I hope it continues.

    2. snmls

      snmls

      I'm glad you gave your medication a try.  Adjusting to medication can take time.  

  11. I’m proud of you. I miss talking to you. Please call when can. My number changed temporarily; I’ll text you the new one, you won’t see this for awhile. You really hep Ed me. I’m greatful. Thank u. Much care xx 

  12. 1:24am. Waiting for pills to kick in. Hatred runs through my veins. For him, for them, most sadly, for me. I think I’ll be okay this time. Happier days; terrifying nights. I was a victim of rape and childhood abuse for 7 years. I’m not wanting sympathy, I want understanding. I’m not the only one, no but that cuts deeper. We are all struggling. I don’t know why I’m going off tonight. Tomorrow will be better. It will be. Maybe, right?

  13. Series of really horrible dreams all night that I feel too ashamed to even talk about, really sets that mood for a rainy hot (insert whatever day it is as I’m just not even sure) ah why do our dreams have so much power over my feelings?? It’s just dreams.. it’s just dreams .. 😞

  14. Today I was happy. And I wasn’t even on drugs. I was naturally happy and I can’t believe it. I had energy and motivation but now it’s 12 am and I still can’t sleep. Have day hospital at 830am. I hope I feel happy tomorrow too. 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      glad you were able to feel happy naturally :) .

    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      I hope that feeling lasts for you a long time and comes back often.

  15. Made it 20 mins at day hospital before crying and leaving. F anxiety. I can’t do this

    1. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      You made it 20 minutes! You have been through a shit ton!! Let your body grieve and express those emotions :hug:

    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  16. Needing someone to talk to. But don’t want to be a burden. I don’t know

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hey , here if you still need to talk. Your not a burden :) .

  17. I’ve lost all my friends. They are all gone. I have no one to vent and talk to when these thoughts are racing. I’ve been awake 3 days straight. I’m desperate for a conversation with someone but my parents are off limits and my boyfriend is already showing weird signs concerns but not saying so I can’t talk to him. I feel truly alone

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    2. Capulet

      Capulet

      Thinking of you, @Brooklyn24 - you have us.  100%.  Please let us know how you're doing.  We're all thinking of you. By the way, I'm having some awful trouble with sleep lately, so if you're up late, give me a shout.  Sending safe, healing hugs your way.

    3. Brooklyn24

      Brooklyn24

      Thank you everyone so much xx

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Yw hope your feeling better friend , safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  18. Got out of inpatient and learned a lot. Gunna be in the partial hospital program and gunna give it my best shot. Really wanna get better 

  19. In the midst of deep sorrow
    I see Your light is breaking through
    The dark of night will not overtake me
    I am pressing into You

    1. Poppy_

      Poppy_

      I love that song! I played it on Piano last night :throb: in fact, I was probably playing it and singing at the same time you posted this! 

  20. I hate myself. 

    I am vile

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      You are not. You are hurting. :(

      Sitting with you.

    2. Bluesclues
    3. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      ditto to @MeBeMary :throb:

      There is nothing vile or deserving of hate about you. :hug:

  21. I got my injection and feel so defeated. I tried telling my bf my thoughts but he disregards like always. I know this is wrong but i asked him why he doesn’t see the red flags, why do I feel so alone in this... he said he does see the flags but he ‘believes’ in me 😂 hahahahahahahahahah

     

  22. Tonight just seems almost impossible to get through 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you, if it helps. :hug: 

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      I'm so sorry. I hope the morning brought relief in a new day. :throb:

  23. I really can’t take being a bipolar paranoid person anymore. Like... relief please 

     

    knowing my thoughts aren’t true but yet still believing they are ? I know.... makes a lot of sense 

  24. I’m getting married in less then 2 weeks!!!! I’m marrying my best friend and I can’t fricken wait. 

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    2. Ghost of me

      Ghost of me

      @Brooklyn24Congratulations! Wishing you all the best.

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Congrats!  I'm happy for you.  :)

    4. patriciag

      patriciag

      Congrats you deserve all the happiness 

  25. “I’m sorry to the people I hurt, while I was hurting”

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