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  1. Sometimes I wanna die even when I’m happy too 

  2. Oh what did I get myself into 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

    I can’t with myself like geeeezzzzz

  3. so much happening, overwhelmed. Shook like a leaf all day, haven’t eaten, haven’t slept. I am scared, I am hearing things and my paranoia is killing me. Am OK. But not. 

    1. MeBeMary


      Sitting with you, Brooklyn. Sorry it is so difficult right now.


  4. It’s 1am breakdown time

    1. tuliptorn


      Safe hugs :hug:

  5. I spontaneously went to the beach with a friend today and like... I didn’t have that much anxiety about being surrounded my people... a little but I was ok.

    1. tuliptorn


      Glad you had the pleasure of being okay.🌸

  6. I actually gave my medicine a try, took it for over a month every day and I’m shocked... it might be working???? Who woulda thought. I’ve been feeling okay again

    1. 8888


      Happy to hear this.  My experience has been it can take some time for medicine to kick in so maybe it's just starting to work.  I hope it continues.

    2. snmls


      I'm glad you gave your medication a try.  Adjusting to medication can take time.  

  7. I’m proud of you. I miss talking to you. Please call when can. My number changed temporarily; I’ll text you the new one, you won’t see this for awhile. You really hep Ed me. I’m greatful. Thank u. Much care xx 

  8. 1:24am. Waiting for pills to kick in. Hatred runs through my veins. For him, for them, most sadly, for me. I think I’ll be okay this time. Happier days; terrifying nights. I was a victim of rape and childhood abuse for 7 years. I’m not wanting sympathy, I want understanding. I’m not the only one, no but that cuts deeper. We are all struggling. I don’t know why I’m going off tonight. Tomorrow will be better. It will be. Maybe, right?

  9. Series of really horrible dreams all night that I feel too ashamed to even talk about, really sets that mood for a rainy hot (insert whatever day it is as I’m just not even sure) ah why do our dreams have so much power over my feelings?? It’s just dreams.. it’s just dreams .. 😞

  10. Today I was happy. And I wasn’t even on drugs. I was naturally happy and I can’t believe it. I had energy and motivation but now it’s 12 am and I still can’t sleep. Have day hospital at 830am. I hope I feel happy tomorrow too. 

    1. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      glad you were able to feel happy naturally :) .

    2. tuliptorn


      I hope that feeling lasts for you a long time and comes back often.

  11. Made it 20 mins at day hospital before crying and leaving. F anxiety. I can’t do this

    1. Bluesclues


      You made it 20 minutes! You have been through a shit ton!! Let your body grieve and express those emotions :hug:

    2. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  12. Needing someone to talk to. But don’t want to be a burden. I don’t know

    1. Free2Fly


      Hey , here if you still need to talk. Your not a burden :) .

  13. I’ve lost all my friends. They are all gone. I have no one to vent and talk to when these thoughts are racing. I’ve been awake 3 days straight. I’m desperate for a conversation with someone but my parents are off limits and my boyfriend is already showing weird signs concerns but not saying so I can’t talk to him. I feel truly alone

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    2. Capulet


      Thinking of you, @Brooklyn24 - you have us.  100%.  Please let us know how you're doing.  We're all thinking of you. By the way, I'm having some awful trouble with sleep lately, so if you're up late, give me a shout.  Sending safe, healing hugs your way.

    3. Brooklyn24


      Thank you everyone so much xx

    4. Free2Fly


      Yw hope your feeling better friend , safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  14. Got out of inpatient and learned a lot. Gunna be in the partial hospital program and gunna give it my best shot. Really wanna get better 

  15. In the midst of deep sorrow
    I see Your light is breaking through
    The dark of night will not overtake me
    I am pressing into You

    1. Poppy_


      I love that song! I played it on Piano last night :throb: in fact, I was probably playing it and singing at the same time you posted this! 

  16. I hate myself. 

    I am vile

    1. MeBeMary


      You are not. You are hurting. :(

      Sitting with you.

    2. Bluesclues
    3. Iheartcupcakes


      ditto to @MeBeMary :throb:

      There is nothing vile or deserving of hate about you. :hug:

  17. I got my injection and feel so defeated. I tried telling my bf my thoughts but he disregards like always. I know this is wrong but i asked him why he doesn’t see the red flags, why do I feel so alone in this... he said he does see the flags but he ‘believes’ in me 😂 hahahahahahahahahah


  18. Tonight just seems almost impossible to get through 

    1. MeBeMary


      Sitting with you, if it helps. :hug: 

    2. Iheartcupcakes


      I'm so sorry. I hope the morning brought relief in a new day. :throb:

  19. I really can’t take being a bipolar paranoid person anymore. Like... relief please 


    knowing my thoughts aren’t true but yet still believing they are ? I know.... makes a lot of sense 

  20. I’m getting married in less then 2 weeks!!!! I’m marrying my best friend and I can’t fricken wait. 

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    2. Ghost of me

      Ghost of me

      @Brooklyn24Congratulations! Wishing you all the best.

    3. snmls


      Congrats!  I'm happy for you.  :)

    4. patriciag


      Congrats you deserve all the happiness 

  21. “I’m sorry to the people I hurt, while I was hurting”

  22. have I slept in 3 days? No

    have I eaten in 3 days? No

    am I doing absolutely great a majority of the time? Kinda 

    basically..... I am in such a fxck it mood like nothing even matters nothings even real yeeeeee

    1. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    2. Iheartcupcakes


      I am so sorry you are having trouble sleeping or eating. Maybe you could talk to a doctor about something to help? I had to take sleeping pills for a while. I probably still should be...

  23. You’ll get through this, just follow the light in the darkness. 

    Youre gunna be ok.

  24. All my effort is currently exhausted by trying to maintain my high-functioning public persona

    1. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      sorry to hear your feeling exhausted with it all.

  25. Tonight’s logic- can’t sleep because I’m depressed; depressed because I can’t sleep. It’s 5am 

    1. Free2Fly


      Damn , sorry to hear you can't sleep , I've had one of those type of nights before.

      hope you manage to sleep soon.