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  1. Trade my joy for my protection 

  2. Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    hope your doing ok.

  3. Made a fool of myself in front of a therapist, embarrassed to exist. Want to give up

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    2. Free2Fly


      Many safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    3. waterlily13


      You are not a fool, you are strong and doing your best.  Hugs if ok❤️

    4. WannaMoveOn


      Hey, I just saw your status update on the site. Look, your therapist sees all kinds of people with personal struggle on a daily bases. I don't know what you mean with "made a fool of yourself", but therapy is supposed to be a safe place and your T is educated to handle all sorts of reactions and acting outs. Take care

  4. isolating, can’t sleep. No one to tell this to, no one to take this weight. I have destroyed everything 

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    2. Iheartcupcakes


      You haven't destroyed everything. We are here for you to talk to :throb:

    3. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

    4. waterlily13


      Hoping you are doing ok, sending safe hugs if that's alright with you :throb::hug:

  5. Trying to find a therapist like my old one is so hard. I’m never gunna get through anything );

    1. MeBeMary


      Perhaps finding a duplicate of your last T isn't the way to go. Yes, you need one that you can click with and will know how to help you along. You deserve to heal, so keep fighting. :hug: 

    2. Free2Fly


      Hope you can manage to find one that can help.

    3. Moongoddess


      I totally relate to this. After seeing my therapist for over 5 years, it was hard to move and have to find a new one that lived up to how much she helped me. I did find somebody new, though, and although she's different she is still amazing. I just had to have an open mind. It did take me a little while to realize I was trying to duplicate my old T and to set aside expectations.

  6. Sometimes I wanna die even when I’m happy too 

  7. Oh what did I get myself into 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

    I can’t with myself like geeeezzzzz

  8. so much happening, overwhelmed. Shook like a leaf all day, haven’t eaten, haven’t slept. I am scared, I am hearing things and my paranoia is killing me. Am OK. But not. 

    1. MeBeMary


      Sitting with you, Brooklyn. Sorry it is so difficult right now.


  9. It’s 1am breakdown time

  10. I spontaneously went to the beach with a friend today and like... I didn’t have that much anxiety about being surrounded my people... a little but I was ok.

    1. tuliptorn


      Glad you had the pleasure of being okay.🌸

  11. I actually gave my medicine a try, took it for over a month every day and I’m shocked... it might be working???? Who woulda thought. I’ve been feeling okay again

    1. 8888


      Happy to hear this.  My experience has been it can take some time for medicine to kick in so maybe it's just starting to work.  I hope it continues.

    2. snmls


      I'm glad you gave your medication a try.  Adjusting to medication can take time.  

  12. I’m proud of you. I miss talking to you. Please call when can. My number changed temporarily; I’ll text you the new one, you won’t see this for awhile. You really hep Ed me. I’m greatful. Thank u. Much care xx 

  13. 1:24am. Waiting for pills to kick in. Hatred runs through my veins. For him, for them, most sadly, for me. I think I’ll be okay this time. Happier days; terrifying nights. I was a victim of rape and childhood abuse for 7 years. I’m not wanting sympathy, I want understanding. I’m not the only one, no but that cuts deeper. We are all struggling. I don’t know why I’m going off tonight. Tomorrow will be better. It will be. Maybe, right?

  14. Series of really horrible dreams all night that I feel too ashamed to even talk about, really sets that mood for a rainy hot (insert whatever day it is as I’m just not even sure) ah why do our dreams have so much power over my feelings?? It’s just dreams.. it’s just dreams .. 😞

  15. Today I was happy. And I wasn’t even on drugs. I was naturally happy and I can’t believe it. I had energy and motivation but now it’s 12 am and I still can’t sleep. Have day hospital at 830am. I hope I feel happy tomorrow too. 

    1. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      glad you were able to feel happy naturally :) .

    2. tuliptorn


      I hope that feeling lasts for you a long time and comes back often.

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