Enigma87
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Hope your doing okay? Safe hugs
If ok?
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Hey @Free2Fly Yes, thank you for the safe hugs
& thank you for checking in on me. I’m hanging in there. Been feeling a bit disconnected lately, but I’m okay. I hope you are okay 
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Feeling really down today
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@Free2Fly@mini.finch@MeBeMary@feralcat
Thank you all for your support - for the hugs and for sitting with me. You have no idea how reading/seeing your responses makes me feel right now, after such a rough day.
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@Enigma87, your welcome friend, I hope stuff gets easier for you.
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Life is really hard lately. I just feel so alone. On the outside, I appear calm to everyone. On the inside, I am screaming. I keep numbing the pain so I don't feel so lonely or stuck. Sometimes ending it all seems like an easier option. I promised my T today that I would keep trying though. It just feels like too much sometimes.
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Hiya I just wanted you to know I haven’t forgotten you and that I’m thinking of you. Sorry I haven’t been the most supportive friend. Hope you’re doing ok, love. -L
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@behindthesehazeleyes Oh friend, please don’t worry! I’m not thinking badly about you at all. I’m so glad to hear from you! I’m hanging in there. I hope you are okay! Feel free to PM me if you want
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I just had a rough therapy session today.
My traumaversary is coming up this Saturday. I'm feeling a lot of anger, sadness, and shame. I'm not sure how to handle it all.
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Sending you so much support and kindness, @Enigma87. I know how painful that shame is and I also feel 100% certain that it was not your fault. You did not deserve what happened and you do not deserve blame for it. Safe virtual hugs to you, friend.
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@abhaya Aw thank you for your kind and encouraging words, as well as the hugs!
You have no idea how much I needed to hear that today. Thank you my friend 
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Feeling lonely... It’s no one’s fault but my own though. I hope everyone is doing okay. I’m sorry i haven’t been around much. I’m sending out hugs and support to you all
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@abhaya @mini.finch Thank you both. I appreciate all of your support, friendship, kindness, and hugs. I really needed it. I’m here for you both also.
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Hey @sunflowers88! Welcome to AS! I am in my early 30s also. This community has been such an integral part in my healing. I'm sorry for all the abuse you have been through. I hope you find AS to be just as wonderful and supportive as I have. Sending you support and friendship!
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Having a really hard time right now. Can't stop crying. I feel so alone.
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@MeBeMary @Poppy_ @mini.finch @redadmirals
Thank you all so much for your support. I appreciate the hugs and you sitting with me. Your kindness means so much to me.
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Struggling right now... My sister’s friend was SA’ed on her way home tonight. I’m trying to help, but I’m triggered and feel helpless.
Not going to sleep well tonight.
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@Iheartcupcakes @Poppy_ Thank you both so much for your support.
She filed a police report last night. It was her Uber driver that attacked her. So I take it the police are tracing things back to him. Idk... In any case, I will encourage her to come on AS.
@Free2Fly Yea, I know this isn't the first time she's been SA'ed like many of us. However, she is understandably shaken up. I am still emotional about it not just for me and my experience, but because I know how it feels to be SA'ed when under the influence by someone you just met. It's so heartbreaking.
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Tension at home again. It never ends. I’m so tired of pretending everything is okay. Gotta move out.
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@Capulet Aw thank you so much friend. I haven’t forgotten about you btw. I will be PMing you soon
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@redadmirals thank you friend
I appreciate you sending strength. I can certainly use it! It’s also nice to know you can relate. I will message you soon also.
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@aprilbaby49 Gosh, I am so moved by this... It’s inspiring to read. I admire the self-respect you have and the determination to put the blame where it belongs - solely on him. I support you wholeheartedly. Sending you much care and support.
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Hey there girl, I’m back online and wanted to say hi. I hope you’re doing well.
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Hey girl! @behindthesehazeleyes I’m so glad to hear from you
I’ve been okay. Hanging in there as best as I can. I’ll definitely PM you.
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Anxious. In shock. Can’t sleep. Bad flashbacks
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@Abigail2020 Aw thank you so much
I really appreciate the hugs
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@waterlily13 Aw thank you
I’m trying... I appreciate the support friend.
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@wolfennights Hmm, I’ll have to check this out! Thanks for the recommendation! & don’t feel embarrassed... I think many of us watch shows like that. I know I do... especially when I am super anxious and depressed or cannot quiet my thoughts related to trauma. My dad got angry with me tonight and it triggered some trauma from my past. So now I’m in my room watching SpongeBob, drinking milk, and eating candy, with my stuffed “build-a-bear” polar bear from my preteen years. Lol - so don’t feel bad
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Oh wow @13rose... this is so powerful, and relatable. I am so sorry the night haunts you in this way. I feel similarly about the night and my traumas. The part you mentioned about being sucked into a time loop feels so true when I’m in bed at night. I’m not sure what to say really. I just want you to know I admire your strength as a survivor, in what you have been through, and being able to communicate and express your feelings in this way. Although sad, you wrote this so beautifully and powerfully. Thank your for sharing. I am sending you kindness and support, as well as sitting with you if y
Sending safe hugs too if OK
You're not alone.