Thank you all! It took me months I think to realize the enormity of what he had done and that it could be considered sexual assault. Now that I don't communicate with him anymore and I have taken the time to research things, I can see it. I know I shouldn't feel shame and that it wasn't my fault, I just hate that part of me that couldn't see it and continued to believe he loved me and that we had a future. Hindsight is 20/20, for sure. Thank you again for your kind words.