[Is it just me or is everyone in the room looking at me?]

Wow, Sorry to hear what you're going through. This has been my experience since, well, I guess since I was abused this has been my way of life (I was abused as a child before since I can remember til 11yrs old when taken away by Childrens Aid), I haven't known a different way of being - free of this endless introspection and fear.

Sorry you are facing it now, hoping there is a better way to be, around the corner. Believing with the healing and finally sharing, that I can be whole again too. Wishing and praying for your healing. Take care.

[Love me? Still trying to like me]

Thanks for sharing your painful experience, it takes a lot of courage to let it out, I know. I'm sure I could say all the wrong things right now, as I try really hard to say something meaningful and helpful to you. Everything that popped into my head sounded cliche. So, until I think of something better, I just want you to know, I care, and I'm not the only one. I wish I could share a coffee and a few tears with you. Life gets easier when you have someone to talk to. I spent close to 20 years in my own psychological prison. Sharing is the first step to freedom. Praying for you "aperson".