Hi @EvaMillie, I'm new to the AS community too.
Just today I've had a breakthrough with my therapist, as due to circumstances it became really clear that I can't talk about what happened or say it out loud. (I thought I could and I thought i was, but really the sessions were going no where)
However, after completing one of the excercises she set me, it showed us both that I can write about what happened/my emotions/ where my head is at etc. Therefore im now going down that route.
As it only happened today, I can't vouch that it will work, but maybe an idea for you to take to your therapist?
Hope that things do become easier for you.