elisand

I really wish I could become a Pop-Star. 

And I would sing how I feel as a survivor.

i thought it would be good to put down in which ways my existence has gotten better through therapy.

i don't feel suicidal all the time

walking is easier

in control of my organs

find things that help me like internet

like After Silence

buy things to make me feel good 

like coke (the drink!)

stand up to my parents and tell them what i need

create a viable day plan that i feel good about

think of what i want to do in the future

met a girl (but i broke up) 

know what is special about me

filter who to connect with

do things in public like speaking

confident with study partners

 

Pretty terrible.. broken phone no money. But i have someone sitting with me. Need support please

I like the song. it's very positive action. counteracts the depression.

Not about the attraction-oriented lyrics. That is a possible trigger if you don't like things about attraction.

otherwise pls enjoy!

Want to wish each one of you a safe and happy holiday. 

Thanks to you all for the support.

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I can't understand how I do nice things for other people but somehow it happens. It's so confusing. Maybe I just want others to think I'm special

Very scary. winding up therapy with my T. I know I've progressed but I know there is much more to advance. We will take around 6 more weeks to wind it up and then I fly away. I'll have to find a new T in Canada who I will be able to trust and work with. My therapist said I will not have to start from where I started with him but rather much further on the therapy path which I acknowledge and am happy about.

 

Finished 1st phase of therapy scary but happy and proud

Sorry I haven't been around. I have a slow internet connection 

Hi! I know I've been awol from here. 

I'd like to notify everyone here I have started a YouTube channel. The name is Elisand. Please interact and I hope to lend some support to you. see you there!