elisand

@elisand What does love mean to you? I often wonder myself, what is love? I don't know if I've ever experienced love, except for the pure love from a cat. Animals seem to know how to love better than humans.

idk, i definitely don't love my parrents though they think they love me.

I agree, and i want a pet but currently i am not in the position to have one.

And thanks @Free2Fly, i wish i knew why people love me, maybe i can't love myself

, i'm sure its just a learning process.

@elisand I am okay, just came here to look for some support. How are you doing?

Good for now but I'm on the roller-coaster. You probably know what I mean

Yes, I do. Sitting with you and safe hugs if okay

Hope you have fun and enjoy yourself! Lucky you!  

Have a lovely and safe trip! I'd love to go as well one day. Hope you enjoy it there 😊

Thanks @patriciag @Dahliaa and @fallenstar. 

It's really much better. I feel like I'm finally able to breathe.

thank you

I really like the phrase "firm heart"!  And the whole poem gives me a clean true feeling. Thanks for sharing it.

thanks, somehow when i write my real feelings just come into focus

You are not alone sitting with you and sending support. 

thank you right now i'm going into shock 

hi, im sitting with you and sending support if its ok

That would upset and piss me off too.

Sorry they said that. They have no idea.

thanks. I think they care about the perv. What the f----'n he--.

You count. You count a heck of a lot. to you, if ok.

thanks so much

But I don't get why

I'm so sorry

thanks. could you sit with me for a while?

I would like to think so , just a matter of finding whatever it is.

safe hugs  if ok?

I don't know, but I hope we all figure it out one day. 

I'm sorry to hear that but glad you are ok. 

Thank you

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow 

Hope the 'not good' feeling goes away soon. Sending support, safe hugs and sitting with you, if you'd like.

Elisand, so sorry to see that this is the case. It tends to not be a good feeling at all. Just curious as to if this is someone online or away from the computer altogether.

I love this!

thank you I might create more like this

Not sure haven't found the answer yet... sorry  

Safe hugs  if ok?

when people bump into me I get angry

sitting with you and here for you

Thanks.  Same to you

Thank you @elisand for your kind words to my post. Yes, OCD can be a very debilitating condition that is hard to find and answers too. I hope I can find solutions to a great many problems. Safe hugs to you too, if ok.  

I want to really be there for you all the time but I can't. I am struggling too. I will be there when I can.

I feel like this too. I don't have anyone I could go to when I need help. I have learned to be there for myself. At least I know there's someone I can always count on. I can't give myself the best advice and I can't show myself things I don't see, but I'm always there. I also turn to God and it helps me.

It may be hard, you can learn to forgive yourself. Doesn't sound intentional and you said sorry. Maybe start by replacing feeling guilt with doing something good?