I have been looking for a safe place like this for a while, wasn't ready up till now may. The first 16 or so years it was buried deep. occasionally it would surface but would go away quickly for various reasons...and then it started to bubble up and fester. The last two years have been a roller coaster emotionally, psychologically. I feel I have lost many friends and support, have missed or sabotaged many opportunities. Im stuck. I want to move out of this place in my head. I want to heal my long ignored wounds. I want to reconnect with the 27 year old me that I abandoned.