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  1. Im really not sure why i always ask myself - if everyone suffers with depression at some point. Maybe cause i just normalise how i constantly feel. And think this is just life. And people can be so good at hiding it. I dont think everyone does, cause like everyone experiences sadness, so then i start questioning if mentall illness is a thing.but then some online support & then realise it is a thing and others are suffering aswell. But i still feel like how i feel isnt justified and frustated i cant just get over it cause i cant physically see whats wrong with me and makes it feel invalid and i feel weak.

    Half the time i feel like my sentences dont even make much sense. So i always repeat everything i say but in different ways after but then i look more mentally ill and forgetful, but i just always feel misunderstood and like i just make no sense

    1. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?


      depression isn't normal at all I would say.

      mainly cause some people go through life and never experience it... we are just the unlucky ones I guess :( .

  2. I'm in hospital & I dont want my family to visit for them to make me feel worse and say the usual "dont you see how this affects others" & make me feel selfish & self centred. I dont want to face them, they are going to be so disappionted with me :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

    1. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: , can you ask for them to be not allowed in?


      hope your get better soon.

    2. Dahliaa


      Get better soon. You are under no obligation to call them :hug: 

  3. I can't help but fear my life will go too quick to start anything meanful, i dont see the point anymore. I just cant be bothered to live :'(

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    2. Bluesclues


      You can get through this struggle right now. You have meaning, you will create meaning. Most of the people in the world make meaning within their small circles of friends/family.  Or they find meaning in the day to day life. There is so much meaning and beauty in life. These awful things that have happened to us and the mental disorders whether in connection with the trauma or not, they rip the life out of us. We say "fuck you" to that, I am not letting it ruin me. It's so hard to do most days or somedays depending on where you stand, but you aren't alone in this struggle. YOU MATTER. You are meant to be here. Your life has impacted someone else's in one way or another. You matter.

    3. Shaunie


      Thank you very much:hug:

    4. Bluesclues


      Shaunie, anytime. I know it's hard to remember at times, but there is a point to all of this. A lot of little things make up for the horrible events. I promise it will get better in time. So many safe hugs. I hope you are doing better today.

  4. Im so confused and frustrated i feel like crying:'(. I have weighed myself so many times this morning, in different places and have measured my height so many times thinking im going somewhere wrong calcuating my BMI. I have even checked on many different websites and i am still under the anorexic weight. I honestly dont know. I feel so fat, i am not stupid i can see fat everywhere. 

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    2. Free2Fly


      Safe hug :hug: if okay?

      dont stress just take a deep breath and relax and remind yourself that it's all okay and your body is yours to do whatever you please.

      sitting with you if ok?

    3. Shaunie
    4. Free2Fly


      :hug: , hope you feel better soon.

  5. Im not an immature or a vain person for having anorexia. Its more about addiction, obsession and control. 

    I honesly dunno how many times i will be made to feel pathetic and have my problems minimised

    1. LuthienTinuviel


      I understand. Others think they know better but they don't

  6. My family dont care about me. Theyre self centred. I can see right through them. They hate me and only show they "care" to feel better about themselves and to make it all about themselves. And my "friends" are just nosey. Id rather have no support then fake support

    1. LuthienTinuviel


      Sitting with you and hugs if ok. 

      I think relatives are difficult for support. It happens in dysfunctional family I guess.

  7. Hey

    Thank you very much!
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    Thank you all!!:)
  10. Hey

    Hi all. Im new to this. I have been through rape and sexual humilation in which i find very disgusting and really embarassing and hard to say out loud and hoping sharing it with other will give me corouge to seek professional help for it. Not sure where to post what happen and how i feel though? I am female and 19 and suffer with borderline personality disorder, anorexia, depression and social anxiety.