nailimixam

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About nailimixam

  • Rank
    Seeker
  • Birthday 02/22/1992

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  • Gender
    Male
  • Location
    Germany/UK
  • Interests
    Filmmaking, Film (watching), Cinematography, Photography, Exploring, Walking, Video games, creativity, art

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  • MembershipType
    Survivor

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  1. I'm just feeling overwhelmed with everything right now! 
    All anxiety is back. It's like healthy me vanished and broken me is back. 
    Maybe it's a sign I'm doing the right thing....challenging old systems...

    1. LuthienTinuviel

      LuthienTinuviel

      I hope you feel better soon. Please take care. Sitting with you if ok

  2. Maybe it's time (again) to acknowledge to myself that I need a break. That I am suffering. Maybe the mask is falling, maybe he is getting ready to come out and let me be there for him. I love him so much and I want to lift his sorrow and banish his horrors. 
    This is currently getting me through:

     

  3. I never realised how badly I wanted to talk about all this. About all experiences, suspicions, dreams, memories, images, issues, struggles. I am glad to be here!  

    1. Kmkz

      Kmkz

      Happy you found AS and have been able to express yourself.

  4. Hello everyone here, I am really glad that I have found this. I am currently at the point where I am faced with the question, the feeling and the suspicion that something might have happened to me as a child. IF something might have happened to me as a child. All I have is a big lack of memory and certain experiences, feelings, mind-images, dreams and possibly even behaviours that have been and could be suggestive of such a thing having happened to me. And this is what brings me here. After using the last year of working through things, realising that I grew up in an emotionally abusive family constellation (though the emotional abuse was involuntary), working through it and re-discovering parts of myself, and regaining memories there is still something that feels like a pit in me, that is inaccessible and keeps the rest of the 'full me' and my memories away. And, I just know in order to become fully and wholly me I need and want to open this and access it. Because I know however big the horror what waits is beyond reward. I hope to speak to many of you, can listen to you, find out about your experiences maybe get pointed in right directions and I hope I even can offer support from my side. I am always happy to listen. And lastly, just because it has a huge impact on me and I find it to ring true to many fighting, no matter with what kind of issues and horrors, I'd like to share a song. Our hearts are all golden, we just forget it from time to time!