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waterlily13

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    3 hours ago, GoldDustGypsy said:

    It's difficult to talk to people who don't understand and haven't been through what I have. I'm hoping that connecting with people with similar issues may help my mindset or at least give me some kind of outlet. I just don't know how to handle the nightmares anymore and don't understand after all of these years why they won't go away. 

    Hi!  I'm a bit short on words but wanted to say hello.  I understand the need to connect to people with similar issues and just needing an outlet!  Sending you support and hoping for more peaceful nights ❤️ 

    Question T Asked Me Today

    in Public: Pretty Good Year

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    I would stop blaming myself. 

    I would be ok saying that *he* hurt me and not feel bad about that.

    I would accept that *he* was responsible for his actions and not carry that weight.

    I would be at peace with the fact that there was nothing I could have done.

    I would have more trust in relationships, and feel that I deserve to be loved.  

    I would speak freely about my experience and not feel shame, because I would have nothing to feel ashamed of.

    I'm going to think about this more, I like where this is going:throb:

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    On 3/15/2019 at 12:02 PM, K-anon said:

    Hi all. I’m new. It’s my first time really entering this realm of people since I’m not very good at accepting what happened. Lately though things have been rough. My boyfriend has admitted it’s too much for him when I have those nights of breakdown remember that horrible moment. The one person I thought understood and was there to comfortable me is no longer there and I can’t bottle it up again because the bottle was already opened. Now I’m stuck in my own madness feeling alone, scarred, disgusted, and tired of living. 

    -K-anon

    I’m so sorry to hear this, I had a similar reaction once when telling a friend and it is devastating :( but it does get better, you are very brave and strong, it takes courage to reach out and keep trying, don’t give up:throb:

    xWaterlily

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    8 hours ago, PenguinDance said:

    I found this site by googling and debated on if I wanted to join. Since if I joined, that would be admitting that yes, it really did happen. I'm sort of shaky even posting anything on here, since it's another step to making it 'permanent'. 

    I'm sorry if that's not very coherent. I tend to type my train of thought - I can't remember the term for that right at the moment. 

    Anyway, hello. I'm not very glad to be here, if that makes sense, but I am glad to have found a place for support and understanding while I work through this. Thank you, everyone who is a part of this site. 

    Hi @PenguinDance welcome!  I had similar thoughts when I joined this site as well, I’m sorry for what brings you here :( I know you’ll find lots of support however, and you are very brave taking this next step to heal <3

    xWaterlily

    Hey There

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    Hi there!  Welcome back we are glad to have you! I think that's awesome you are working so hard to heal, I am so sorry for what you went through.  You'll find a lot of support here, take gentle care of yourself as you move forward and know there are many here that are happy to listen:supportu:

    hi

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    Welcome to AS @danxing!  I'm sorry for what's brought you here, but this is a place where you'll find people that understand what you're going through and will support you.  Sending suppor and healing to you :) 

    Hello

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    Hi @brown.deer, welcome!

    You are very strong for so actively seeking healing.  I know the feeling of wanting things back to the way they were before.  A very wise friend advised me once that you can’t really go back, but you can create a new that is even better than the old, and she’s been right!  I know you will find support and healing here, feel free to reach out if you have any questions :) 

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    18 hours ago, SPNEmB said:

    Hello, 

    I am new here, just got the approval notice today. I am from Minnesota, USA. I am 23 and identify as female, and into males. My favourite TV shows are Ghost Adventures, A Million Little Things and most importantly Supernatural. I have been dealing with my past for a few years now, but for the first time in forever, I finally feel like I am ready to talk. I am a huge fan of the theatre, I work at a theatre company in St Paul, they just happen to work with people with disabilities. I love it, my lifelong dream came true last month when I made my first paycheck doing theatre. I spent over a year training in DBT and CBT skills, as well as having attended therapy that focuses on that area of training... I hope with the help of this site and the exploration of some in-person support groups near me, that someday I will be able to understand and believe that I am still an amazing person and that what happened was and is never my fault. 

    :aswelcomesu:

    I am sorry for the suffering that brought you here, this is a very safe, supportive place.  I hope you are able to find the peace and healing you are looking for!

    xWaterlily

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