Hi, I finally found the courage to actually TALK about my past after ~15 years of not even admitting it to myself and refusing to talk about it.
My main goals are to find people like me who have been through similar things and get some useful coping methods. For years I used to think that if I never talked about my abuse, then it didn't happen/ I would be able to forget. However, what I noticed is that when I'm stressed about something non-abuse related (studying for tests, arguing with girlfriend, feeling left out by friends, etc), that I would have abuse-related nightmares and flashbacks, despite my abuse being so long ago. So I'm hoping that by finally talking about it, I can *move on* in a way.