Dahliaa

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About Dahliaa

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    Writing poetry and novels, songwriting, painting, dancing, reading, and making someone's day a little bit better.

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  1. You were wrong about me.
  2. Today is starting out pretty good. Prayed, did some meditation and now I'm sitting down to do some reading.

    1. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      Hope it's still going well. :luck:

  3. Just want to be reckless in every way. Aka a more subtle emotional suicide that leaves me with no one to blame...

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Your welcome dahliaa :) 

    3. Ian37

      Ian37

      Dahliaa, life is all an experience. Things get thrown at us left to right and ones which are bound to cause some sense of stress. What matters is how we choose to deal with it all. It's simply not possible to be these good little robots all the time. You may feel like this once again. It is quite okay to be a little emotionally reckless at times. So long as we find that safety once again.

    4. Dahliaa

      Dahliaa

      I'm not exactly stressed @Ian37 you did get the second part right. I simply don't think I'm that good of a person. Thank your for your comment anyway :)

  4. Why did he have to call me "babe". I shouldn't be disgusted. I shouldn't be afraid. How do I wrangle with these feelings of fear and hope just because a man I don't know called me "babe".

    1. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      Safe hugs. Your reaction is valid, you are allowed to fear a strange man calling you babe. He shouldn't have called you babe, at least I think it's inappropriate to call a stranger a term of endearment. Well I also just don't even like them, they gross me out except for "dead", I love being called dear, it's so protective and loving. 

      Safe hugs again. 

    2. Dahliaa

      Dahliaa

      Thank you for your reply. I don't like it at all. I've never understood why someone would a stranger a term of endearment. I know he may have meant nothing by it but it was unnerving. It's inappropriate and unnecessary. I've never liked terms of endearments unless I'm close to the person in question. I especially hate sweetheart. Every time I've heard someone call me a sweetheart, it's always sarcastic so I can't take it seriously

    3. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      I agree with the sweetheart. It makes me gag. 

  5. My therapist asked me what I wanted. What does Dahlia want? Out of life? Out of herself? Hell if I know. I don't know who I am anymore. I don't think I ever did know.

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sounds like you may want you really want is answers? I can't help with that, but I can sit with you and offer a :hug: if ok?

    2. Dahliaa

      Dahliaa

      Thank you so much. I accept both! I feel like what I truly want is peace of mind and understanding but I have feeling my therapist will think those answers are vague.

    3. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I surely understand that. But I would disagree that by itself this would be vague. Peace and understanding are substantial and worthy wants.  It's the process at how to get there that can be the difficult part to see.

  6. I feel so disgusting. Sometimes, I just hate the person I am now. Wish there was a time I could go back to...before what happened...happened.

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if okay?

       

      no one deserves what happened to any of us , I am sorry things seem crappy at the moment.

      just note there's support all around you :) 

       

      free

    2. Dahliaa

      Dahliaa

      Thanks for the hugs and your kind words :)

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Your welcome :) , always here if you wanna talk or need support.

  7. Went to the store to get some snacks and there were these kids being all loud, dressed so outrageously and I swear I got so scared. I became even more hypervigilant and I was practically running out of there.

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    2. Dahliaa

      Dahliaa

      Thanks for the hugs :) Yeah, it may have been nothing but they were acting a bit erratic. I don't understand kids of this generation lol

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Yeah my neighbors are a**h*les,

      their kids run wild like nutters and they get away with everything I mean the are supposedly traumatised yet they act completely normal and run wild. 

      I hate them though , & all the screaming and shouting triggers me.

    4. Dahliaa

      Dahliaa

      How old are their kids? I'm the same way. Any kind of loud noise is so triggering to me. And of course, because they're young, people will normalize the behavior as if it's not rude.

  8. Welcome to AS! You'll find a supportive group here. If you need anything, don't be afraid to reach out
  9. Feeling good today, maybe because I didn't think much about the abuse/abuser. The music was such a help. Funny enough, it was a song from a Disney movie.

  10. Feeling a lot of regret. I should've told someone. I should've gathered proof against him. I should've fought to put him in jail. What's the use in being angry now?

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    2. oceonwaves

      oceonwaves

      I hope there is still something that can be done I wish you luck and some sense of a resolution and justice.

    3. Dahliaa

      Dahliaa

      Thank you so much for all your help @oceonwaves. I just sent a message to my Title IX coordinator. Hopefully something can be done but I won't be upset if nothing can be done. Just the fact that I'm taking action, even years later, makes me happy.

    4. oceonwaves

      oceonwaves

      @Dahliaa you have come a long way along the healing path, that acceptance is very powerful. I am glad that mine is with a really kind detective .