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  1. I'm about to cry in this damn airport. I am the luckiest woman to have the people I do in my life 😭

    1. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  2. So this is what bliss feels like. Let's see how long it lasts this time. 

  3. Never Good Enough

    Thank you
  4. Never Good Enough

    Yep. So many people in my life have reiterated that. It's gotten to the point where I don't depend on anyone so I don't get let down. I've been dragging my feet about cutting them off.
  5. Never Good Enough

    Told I didn't matter. By my father no less. This is an old memory, I don't know why I still remember it. He told me once that if he and my mother had only had ten kids. Then, it wouldn't have mattered if I ran away. It wouldn't matter if I fucked up royally since they'd have ten, precious children who wouldn't have done the things I did. I'll never be good enough for them, will I? I'll never be good enough for anyone and maybe that's okay. I'll be alone, with a revolving door for people to come in and go out. Perhaps I like it better that way. I never want to hear someone say those words again. "you're not good enough".
  6. Stress

    Thank you ❤
  7. Triggered and I don't know why. Listening to music is the only thing keeping me from having a panic attack. 

    1. Field8


      Sitting with you if okay

    2. Dahliaa
    3. Free2Fly


      I can relate that's pretty much me right now, except I'm pretty sure I'm delirious right now or in some kind of heavy reminiscence of the past , with old music like the 60s

      sitting with u if ok?

  8. Stress

    The best part of my day was hearing the words "I understand". I know you don't. You're not me and I'm not you. But to meet someone who's at least gone through something similar was a touching experience in more ways than I seek to understand. To hear that they've experienced their own sense of instability and stress was a relief. To see the proof that they conquered that tumultuous time? I needed that. I needed to hear those words, even if I didn't ask for them. I'm realizing now it's okay to desire that. Sometimes, being on here, I feel like I'm drowning. Drowning in an unending sea of pain. In the darkest moments, it's nice to find another victim who's struggling with that pain. But it's so easy to drown in that. To get overwhelmed and think to myself, the mundane stressors of life have no place here. This situation isn't dark enough. It isn't pressing enough. It's not bad enough. So it was nice for someone to see what I built in my head as too simple and boring to be stressful as simply that. Painful and stressful.
  9. Home

    A little girl lives within me, harboring my painful truths. I close my eyes and escape to her world. The nightmare, I've named it, affectionately. So simply, this little girl's reality. I hear her cries, pleading, yearning, rabid and unending. Flailing about, destroying everything she comes in contact with. She doesn't care about image, or prestige or family honor. She's simply hurt. The little girl is desperate. She grasps at the shadows of a mother and father, begging them to stay. Begging for love and peace. She bleeds in her effort to both create and maintain a home. She'll tell anyone who will listen, of her pain. Of her desires. She wants a friend. She wants parents. She doesn't want to play pretend with these strange men, she wants a lover who will remain. She wants to be loved and cared for. What she'd give for a home. To be understood. She'll grow wings, if she must, but underneath her breath and then aloud, "Please don't make me leave". She doesn't really want this independence. Not like this. There's a familiarity to this pain.
  10. His, Always Will Be His

    Sorry you're going through this @teleah I personally do not believe you belong to anyone other than yourself, no matter what your abuser did. You are still a loving wife, no matter what. No matter how you've been feeling. Safe hugs
  11. I'd rather be alone, cooking for myself tomorrow.

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    2. Dahliaa


      @goldraindrops I hope so! You deserve that as well and I hope you get it tomorrow!

    3. Capulet


      Cook up a storm and all of your favorites!!  :throb:  Happy Thanksgiving.

    4. Dahliaa


      Thanks @Capulet I ended up having a really good day. Hope you had the same! 

  12. I really wish I'd done so many things in life differently. All I do is daydream now. 

    1. Capulet


      Ain't anything wrong with daydreaming.  I do it frequently.  Just don't lose sight of what's ahead, friend.  We might miss something amazing if we spend too much time on things we cannot change. :throb:

    2. Dahliaa


      Thank you @Capulet ^_^ I'm trying not to! I'm trying to find something to be grateful for and something to look forward to every day.

  13. Hey hope your doing okay?

    safe hugs :hug: if ok?

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    2. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      sadly that makes two of us , I'm in a delirious state at the moment so definitely in great shape but yeah, I'm sorry your not doing so well, here if you wanna talk. :) 

    3. Dahliaa


      No problem :hug: 

      Thanks for the offer. I'll talk to you soon. I'm sorry you've been feeling so bad :/ 

    4. Free2Fly


      Yw , safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      okay , thanks it's just a thing I'm struggling to get past like a deep depressive phase.

  14. Blocking Someone

    Click on the three lines on the side, go to account and then ignored users. You can input their name there and whether you wish to block their mentions/messages/etc.
  15. Been crying all day 

    1. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      hope your feeling better today.

    2. Dahliaa


      Yesterday, no but today, I feel much better. Thanks for the safe hugs @Free2Fly:) 

    3. Free2Fly


      Your welcome :) , glad today is better.