justbeginning

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  • Birthday 09/12/1986

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  1. I LOVE LOVE LOVE this idea teazle! I can't wait to get started! Here's a hug for you! just
  2. Ah, thank you!
  3. In my messages it says I have negative 1 message. Like this: -1 message. What does this mean?
  4. This is very true. People have a hard time understand that it is not about sex most of the time. Sexual abuse is the most humiliating thing ever, and once you have humiliated someone, it is easier to have power over them.
  5. We are all here to support you. I have never come across such a place before, and I hope I can help you as much as everyone here as helped me. There IS hope! Rhea
  6. Hi, I'm Rhea, and I'm looking forward to getting to know YOU!
  7. COFFEEBEAN HELLO!!!! I am so glad you found us, we are here for you!
  8. Hello and welcome! Thank you for your response to my thread about my mother. I am hear to listen whenever you are ready to talk about your story. I just started on here a little over a week ago and already it has been tremendous help for me!
  9. Hi

    Nice to meet you Ali. Your story is important, and we will all be here when you are ready to tell it.
  10. I agree with what everyone has said. You are a brave young woman and I hope that you continue to find strength. I cannot tell you enough how much I agree with Todlyns advice to talk to your guidance counselor with your friend. I am sorry that you have such a mother and home situation. We are all here for you! edit: And I can tell you right now, that NO, you ARE NOT overreacting to whatever this boy did to you.
  11. Thank you so much!
  12. June- I am so sorry to hear of this horrible crime committed against you just 3 months ago. Kudos to you for reporting it and trying to make sense of it all so soon. I understand what it is like to have no support from family and I am very, very sorry. BUT, you WILL have tons of support from me and everyone here!!!
  13. Me too! How do I keep tabs on subjects that I have responded to? And how to you get all the rest of the emoticons that I keep seeing? I'm super new when it comes to message boards!
  14. Thank you. That one pissed me off for a while. She can get so nasty! She has left me many many voice messages where she is just... evil. The last one she left me went "Rhea, now you're not answering my phone calls. You know, you used to be so strong, never play victim BUT I guess you're looking for sympathy... anyway...." f*ck you b*tch! I'm not "looking for sympathy" and even if I was, I certainly know I would never get it from you!!!!! Her tone of voice so UGH! I just can't explain it. She keeps saying to me that "your father and I sat down after you told me and had a good long talk about it. We moved on, you need to too" (she says he was going through a "weird phase" but I know that bastard hasn't changed a bit and even if it was a "weird phase that's still no excuse) Well gee, thanks mom! I'm glad you and dad sat and had a little chat about him trying to f*ck me and me fighting him off. THANKS! I'm glad the two of you "moved on" together and "got over it". Who cares about me or how it made me feel. "It only happened once" and that shows what a GOOD MAN he is. I asked my mom what she would have done if I hadn't stopped it. If I had let it go "all the way". I wanted to know just what it would have to take to get her to even THINK about leaving him. She said "Rhea, you asked me a very important question and I want to answer it. You wanted to know what I would've done if he had actually had sex with you, WHICH HE DIDN'T WHICH HE DIDN'T, let's not forget that HE DIDN'T, but you asked me and I want to answer. The answer is I don't know. I don't know what I would have done, but the important thing is that that never happened!" This hurt me so much. I said, "What do you mean YOU DON'T KNOW!! Even if dad had full on raped me you STILL don't know what you would have done???!!!! You wouldn't leave him and prosecute immediatly?! You DON'T KNOW?! Even if my dad had FULL ON raped me, then maybe, MAYBE you MIGHT CONSIDER leaving him!! I can't believe you!!" I still can't believe she SAID that! After thinking about her answer too!! She called me back to answer because she NEEDED TIME TO THINK ABOUT IT and her answer was I DON'T KNOW?!!! What kind of mother is she?! edited to fix typos
  15. Congratulations on taking such a huge step in your healing. When you are ready, I will be here, ready to listen to everything you have to say.