oceonwaves

@MeBeMary  and chocolates lots of both to you, alll throughot 2018 and the remainder of this year, thank you for all the support and kindness you show to everyone on here AS. 

Bless you for being an amazing humanbeing.

 all things chocolate and you have your upsidedown chocolate umbrella to catch them.

happy catching.

I absolutley love that picture of the oh so cute kitten, on your profile pic is the kitten yours, I love cats and most animals.

glad you are looking forward to 2018

so am I, I hope your therapist begins to help in 2018.

sorry you feel like this,  sitting with you.

no matter what you have said or thought or done, you are truly worthy.

I have experienced your kindness and understanding many times.

you love your pets ,you have tremendous compassion.

you have overcome some terrible obstacles.

 so sorry only just found request to message me from the 11nth May sorry not the best at navigating site, do not do any fb or stuff.  I live in UK  detectives are dealing with  my case .

@painbroken  thinking of you and the ordeal of chemo, sending you healing thoughts.

I hope you are well enough to go to Uncle Olaf's funeral on Friday 12th.  you are in my prayers.

you inspire  and  support people  here.  you are close to your daughters.

you are open with your feelings  .  whatever way you were treated that does not define you as a human being. shame on parents that mistreat their children.

there is someone I know at the spiritualist church, that was abused by monk in childhood, on several occasions this monk now deceased , came through to mediums asking for forgiveness , he refused to give him forgiveness and said to medium to tell monk to stop asking because he was never going to forgive him. 

one off my teachers in circle who is clairvoyant explained that spirits who have done evil things while on earth are afraid to show themselves, they just put a foot in and hang back and they try and seek forgiveness  which is often denied to them so they do not r.i.p.

Hi Patriciag

I  am so grateful to you for being such an inspiring awesome  human being . 

your  about me touched my heart and brought tears to see how much you have overcome and how great you are.

my mother died on march 14 nth 2016, I miss her. there were lots of secrets in her family.

I went to Ireland to see her before she died I did not recognise her at first (cancer)

she had Parkinson's for many years  I said goodbye to her on 4th of March

I had to return to London .  thank God I had that time with her  most we ever talked

and it was healing.  for both of us. crying as I type this .

the Eagle     spirit animal       =       trust in your higher self 

also means Vision  Courage  Universality its from power animals oracle cards

your light will shine if you only let it.

I flew like an eagle in a meditation  in circle it was beautiful several years ago

also saw the most beautiful wolf  by my side another time.

I just read the angry god. how dare they blame you its appalling. where is the compassion the non judgement  the healing for the soul. Mary queen of angels would not be proud 

no one deserves what you went through  Unfortunately the catholic work on guilt. there is a saying the jews invented guilt and the catholics perfected it.

as billy Connelly the comedian says  A level in guilt if catholic.

I was brought up a catholic its so anti the powerful feminine and they are projecting their stuff on to you. I only go for family funerals now and last time I went I thought no wonder I stopped

its fine for some people  I guess 

now I am spiritualist and that is so gentle and life affirming.

it really helped me through tough times.

all denominations welcome 

sorry about you over eating issue, after 1s't r... I started being bulimic but I said this is another 

load of crap , I think its about having a sense of control . 

 or  purging the body of something you don't want,

not eating also is something that you control sometimes 

when it seems you can't control anything outside the body

and maybe it helped me numb my feelings of outrage that it happened and fear etc,

I watched addicted to food on Netflix  and it was enlightening .

oceonwaves

thank you you helped by just acknowledging and replying

feel a bit better tonight 

lack of sleep a pain, mind goes into overdrive

I think of the ocean , childhood by the ocean

the fresh air and sound of waves soothing.

Oceonwaves

Hello Patricia

thank you for your support and that lovely pulsating heart, how did you attach that?

a bit rubbish at  some computer things, 

last night did not realise that anyone had replied

I like name Patricia . I have close family called Patricia, and Patrick he is not alive now.

I know I have the strength to carry me through some of the time.

even though its hellish pain sometimes . Have already reported to police and did video recorded

interview.

oceanwaves

insomnia and post traumatic stress  really a pain.

waiting for trial date. detective has found out  more  bad stuff about him but they don't disclose 

yet.   

can you help me with  please with removing my birthdate from my profile?

tried to edit it, not successful.