Ohh, I really don’t know how to start, well maybe I should start with saying hi to everyone
I’m really nervous and scared and that’s probably why I’ve been looking around on this forum for almost a month now without having the courage to introduce myself. But I realize now that I have to start somewhere so here goes…
I’m 32 years old and from the Netherlands. I have been struggling with an eating disorder since I was 18. About a year ago I entered a clinic (where I stayed for 8 months) and although I thought that all my memories were safely tucked away, I realized that I was wrong when I started eating again. With gaining weight all my demons from the past came back to haunt me. I started having flashbacks, nightmares and panic attacks. I was diagnosed with complex PTSD and just recently started trauma stabilization therapy. It is very difficult to continue with this therapy because up until now I have not been able to tell anyone what has happened to me in my past. Here I hope to find the courage and support to maybe finally break the silence. But for now I hope you don’t mind that I’m not able to do much more than introduce myself.
Take care everyone!