Ash9

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About Ash9

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    Ashley
  • Birthday 11/09/1995

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    Female
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    Oklahoma, USA
  • Interests
    the arts and math (I know weird right??)

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  1. I'm afraid that mine won't be "serious enough" for the people I tell too understand that it has torn me from my life. I'm scared they will think I'm being dramatic or seeking attention when I just need to open up to someone.
  2. Language warning

    I'm tired of being nice. I want to just be a bit*h and tell people exactly what I think. It is exhausting being the encourager and positive example. Why do I find myself giving advice to other people that I need to hear? Why can I tell them that everything will be ok when I'm always minutes away from a panic attack? 

    I'm just tired. 

    1. limbodante

      limbodante

      Maybe you're not talking to them, but to yourself. You're only directing it to someone else because we all suck at following our own advice and listening to reason we're not told by someone else.

  3. Hi,  I'm glad you could finally join!:yahoo:

  4. So in Legally Blonde the Musical, I play many characters,  one of which is a workout video girl who turns into an inmate half whay through the song Whipped into Shape. In this number, we sing and dance and JUMP ROPE. 

    Now I am a 200+ pound 5'8" woman. You can bet your ass that mine is getting whipped into shape! I am so freaking sore! I can hardly move my legs our torso right now. This number will be the death of me lol. 

    1. limbodante

      limbodante

      lol rather you than me, my knees ache just imagining using a jump rope myself (250lbs or so bloke over here) :P

  5. Now my car isn't starting. A perfect end to a perfect day...

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    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Oh good. Can you go have your battery tested? If it's bad, it may not start again. I think places like AutoZone or Walmart will do it. 

    3. Ash9

      Ash9

      Thanks,  my roommate came and jump started it and it starred after. I just hope it was a one time thing and that it runs today. I hope today goes better too. 

    4. Ash9

      Ash9

      I'll look into that! Thank you :)

  6. Hey there,

    I just saw your description and want to say that I really like art and math too. :)

    I've always enjoyed drawing and painting and I've always been good at math (to a point lol)

    Am still new to this place so I apologize if this is awkward in any way. 

     

    1. Ash9

      Ash9

      It's not awkward at all! I like finding like minded people and saying hi lol.

      I'm sorry you have a reason to be apart of this group,  but I'm glad you found it! It has helped me so much and I hope it helps you too! 

  7. I'm in Legally Blonde the musical right now and from what I have read of your posts,  you remind me of Elle. She is very sweet but when someone treats her or one of her friends poorly, the claws come out.  One of her lines is, "Girls it's a fact when you're attacked,  you've got to respond!" I love reading your posts, I would recommend listening to Legally Blonde Remix from the soundtrack (or watch the musical on YouTube lol it's really good!!)

    With much love, 

    Ashley

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    2. Ash9

      Ash9

      YAY!! I'm so glad!! (And in that case you REALLY need to watch the musical!  It was recorded on MTV and is on YouTube.  There is a "sing along" version too)  Elle is played by Laura Bell Bundy and from this you would never guess she was a country singer lol

    3. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Thank you...I will look it up tonight :) LOL...I am sure she's great. Elle is great because she stands up for her convictions, no matter what. She knows who she is and what she wants, and she is unashamed of how others perceive her. She is underestimated more often than not, but she always shines. She has insecurities and foibles just like the rest of us, so she's completely relate-able. And, she always perseveres until she overcomes those insecurities. She's smart, loving, loyal, and amazing. I can only hope that I can be, too. 

    4. Ash9

      Ash9

      You will have to tell me what you think of the show! And I am so glad you find so much joy in that character :)

  8. @Bobbi27 hello!! I'm sorry you have a reason to be here, but I'm glad you have found this site and are hopeful for recovery. If ok
  9. I was supposed to perform with my university's show choir this morning and I was throwing up all night. I hate this feeling.  Performing gives me such a great feeling and is a great escape and that got taken away from me. Now I just want to stay in bed all day

    1. snmls

      snmls

      I'm sorry you're not feeling well.  I had the stomach flu a few weeks ago.  It really sucks the life out of you.  Make sure you get plenty of rest. Get get well soon. 

    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I hope it went ok and you are feeling better now.

    3. Ash9

      Ash9

      Thanks, I feel a lot better.  I'm still mad I missed the show but glad I feel better

  10. Hi @Struggling88 Thank you!
  11. Went to church and sang in the choir.  It's nice to have some aspects of my life that are still the same. 

    One of the songs really spoke to me today. 

    "Always"
     

    My foes are many, they rise against me
    But I will hold my ground
    I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
    My help is on the way, my help is on the way

    Oh, my God, He will not delay
    My refuge and strength always
    I will not fear, His promise is true
    My God will come through always, always

    Troubles surround me, chaos abounding
    My soul will rest in You
    I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
    My help is on the way, my help is on the way.
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    2. Ash9

      Ash9

      I know there is a sermon at the life church website. I used to go there and when I miss church, watching the sermons help me out, just an idea.  The pastor there is pretty funny too. 

      I like singing with the church and I'm glad my friend invited me to, even after I told her my story. 

    3. LuthienTinuviel

      LuthienTinuviel

      sounds like a good friend :)

    4. Ash9

      Ash9

      Yeah,  she is the best! 

  12. Thank you
  13. @phoenixxxSame, I also like things that play with my name and Ash is short for Ashley but is kinda a negative word, until you think of a phoenix
  14. @reglois
  15. @phoenixxx thank you! And I have, I am so glad this place exists! Btw LOVE phoenixes probably my favorite mythical creature (I'm a Ravenclaw lol)