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howlieowl

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  1. howlieowl

    in the beginning stages of a migraine. really despise the blinding pain

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    2. howlieowl

      howlieowl

      Exactly @patriciag ! They never know until they get them. Its how i ended where i am now, karma

      :P

       

       

    3. LuthienTinuviel

      LuthienTinuviel

      I get them too. Do you feel any better? 

    4. howlieowl

      howlieowl

      @LuthienTinuviel it normally takes me a couple of days to recover strength after because im so fatigued. today im better with lingering muscle soreness. cutting back in carbs, sugars, and caffeine hoping it helps.

  2. howlieowl

    Almost 7AM no sleep yet. Just had fight with wife about past abuse & rape, my lack of communication, and overall f---ed "normal" life. So tired of feeling worthless, feeling like my past is always coming between us. Nail in the coffin after reading something on AS.

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    2. howlieowl

      howlieowl

      Im sick of it too. My lack of communication comes from physical abuse when trying to communicate my emotions and then my birth mother not believing me when I confessed my abuse at the time it was happening. I learned early on its safer to keep quiet. I have given writing some thought in the past. Its hard to find the strength and courage so many say I have when I dont even feel it.

    3. Me89

      Me89

      I will echo that you are not worthless. I have enjoyed the times I have interacted with you in chat or on the board and find your posts to always be very encouraging and full of wisdom. I am sorry you and your wife had a fight, I hope she is able to be supportive for you in your healing journey.

    4. howlieowl

      howlieowl

      thank you Me. i have the same hope too. i think my issues can be too much for her at times, yesterday being one of them.

  3. howlieowl

    trying to find the energy to sleep but too afraid to close my eyes right now.

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    2. howlieowl

      howlieowl

      @Painnbrokenonly got about 5hrs but i still woke up in the mind of it. *sigh* thanks for sitting with pain. hope you get some type rest as well.

    3. howlieowl

      howlieowl

      @limbodante thanks for sitting with me limbo. it is the worse.

    4. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      You're welcome  I will hopefully soon.  Thank you

  4. howlieowl

    going to bed late again, waking up often again, waking up early in the morning...again. does it end? *sigh*

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    2. howlieowl

      howlieowl

      and im sorry you're going through the same Me. though im tired of it, i hope one day we survivors can have that peaceful sleep.

    3. Hawkgirl

      Hawkgirl

      I'm not a fan either.  I didn't go to sleep until 6:45 this morning.  Slept for 3 hours and now I am back to 21 hour days.  

    4. howlieowl

      howlieowl

      Im sorry your not sleeping as well Hawk:(. Sending comforting Zzzzzs your way for some relaxing sleep in your future.:sleepy:

  5. howlieowl

    finally got a therapy appt. next week. 1st time back in over a year. got nervous excitement going on

    1. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      You got this and it's understandable to feel the way you do.  Sitting with ya and pocket riding if you like. :hug:if ok

    2. howlieowl

      howlieowl

      thank you very much @Painnbroken. not looking forward to the starting over part but i am a little:unsure:.

    3. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      You're very welcome!  Yeah that part bites had to do it several times. You got this take it one min at a time :)

  6. howlieowl

    as i grow older (and wiser) i come to see the power of unity, love, and smiling more. can change my day one smile at a time.

  7. howlieowl

    super tired from staying up late. got a lot of things i want to do. how to manage the time.

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