Miko

Welcome... It’s seem that you dont want to be alone during this upcoming difficult period. As ghosts of the past catch up with us. With Compassion - I believe and I know u will get through this. I promise you. Stay strong. I am so sorry this happened to you. I am sorry that Everyday there are children and women being violated. But you know who’s worse than us? People without empathy. And those thinking that they can take our power from us. They don’t feel. They merely exist. Inhuman. I share your pain but we will be stronger, more compassionate and human inspite of this.

Today I promise to care for myself. Eat well. Watch a movie or 2. Jog at the park. Enjoy nature. Sleep. Maybe visit a museum. Check out the courses I want to take. Read. Go to the beach. Just B

Welcome to AS Hope the healing process goes smoothly for you. i emphatise with your situation, here at AS we will provide as much support as possible. Be mirrors of your thoughts and provide love to heal your pain....listen to your hurting heart do what it needs... one day at a time... ❤️ Miko

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I remember cutting my veins and tried to cut as deep as possible but because i could not keep it wet. the bleeding stopped. i tried several times same vein now scarred i hide it with a watch. lately i've not been sleeping stayin up watching movies with gore and blood. and i imagine i could do those things, pull out his spine, cut him up in half, poison my mother then insert needles in her eyes. i remember when i was eleven after folding laundry of the family, i went into the kitchen. mom and sister were talking. i said something. sister told me off. i was hurt because she was a bully, an

same.... it's been like this since before we got married...am trying to communicate differently with him...

Thanks, yes i need to heal n he isnt helping. will talk to therapist....

just want to die. i am not eating because my husband asks dont u want to eat so i do the opposite. why? because our relationship is toxic. toxic to my recovery and he is toxic so emotionally draining and imposes his feelings on me. i want to exercise so i do brisk walk. oh the attitude he gives me. so dont follow me i say. he wants to follow and then gives me attitude. we even argue about which route to take. i can appreciate that he doesnt like to walk then just let me be. but he cant. so what do i do now? is death better?

It's been awhile since checking in with AS. Am I better? i seriously dont know. nightmares continue and i find myself afraid of going to sleep. wake up in sweat. panic attacks continue too. sometimea trigger is just overwhelming sensation like too much noise or crowded places. Other times it just comes. no reason. heart pounding. icy cold stomach the ice and snow flows through my veins spreading throughout the body. breathing become shallow and fast. however i have been able to read again subjects that i had previously lost now the interest is back. yesterday i almost fel

Hi Sorry for your experience. u can also read and add your experience in the forums. i've have gone thru similar, from about 5 or 6 for a year or so. It may have stopped when i was 8 or 9. and the nightmare is there. i have to deal with it for the rest of my life unless there is specliased treatment. i went thru therapy in my 20s and thot the same. hope u are ok.... rgds miko

Wow! i admire ur strength and i send u love and happiness. And for taking ur power back. the abusers tend to choose the quiet ones who wont talk or they groom the them especially in childhood trauma. i am not young anymore, just been called mental mother in laws! she is of a different race - but maybe my husband called me that - who cares - anyway cause for me this PTSD is a relapse due to workplace sexual harrassments and bullying at work the last 2 years. my brain and body couldnt take it. i just couldnt leave home for work one day, i totally didnt sleep and shut myself in the ne

ANA07, my heart is with u! be brave be bold and have faith.....

can't trust my husband. he probably thinks i am mental too... ironically he is emotionally stunted and has an unhealthy relationship with his mum. now that Dad is gone, i will have to share my husband. tonite he sleeps over at his mum's for prayer rites for his late dad. his emotions are anger, frustration mostly. And slightly happy at times. he tries to be loving but i have a problem with it now that i cant trust him...so alone....

As i sit and talk to the universe and ask exactly why are we here on earth again. and what it means to be human. I started crying and i asked God to forgive the abusers. I felt free. So i ask myself now what? just keep swimming. keep healing it will be soon till we get to the other side.... i dont feel the anger and frustration. But a sense of loss.... i guess now i grieve that little girl that was forced to grow up too soon.... melancholy....

Mental and u wont work again but dont worry abt ur financials it will be taken care of some how.... mother in law said her deity told her this and my mental issues will be fixed this year..... right... i wonder if my husband tell her i am mental. heartbreaking cause cant trust my husband thot he was my support. he told me he didnt say anything to his parents about my PTSD. how to get to the other side? My own family ie mum, bros and sisters dont offer support. i dont think it's a good to lean on my adult kids ... i want them to live their own life. and dont want

some weeks ago i was getting better but then my father in law died. so sad. since i married another race i was kinda an outcast so much of the wake i was sitting in a corner, i fell asleep at one time. FIL was a wonderful man. i cried wonderin if i am.sad for my FIL's death or being invisible. maybe both. see the abuser now my uncle, never told me not to tell anyone. he was so confident i wouldnt tell. that got me thinking how come? he was friends with my eldest brother. Was he observing me? did he know that i was too afraid.of my mother and had no one really to talk to. was i invisi

hi stitch, if peace is what u get from the lotus then maybe a good idea. hope it doesnt become a trigger though. give yourself.some time to see the beauty of this world and your boyfriend sounds wonderful. my life is already ruined right now, my childhood stolen, didnt.know that it ruined my stress response so i made bad choices in my career so now i have ro start over and i pray people will give me another chance. meanwhile, my abusers one living is in NY i wish her well, one living happily, one i forgive. i am angry but i wish them well and i forgive them. forgiveness is a ch

i am sorry. i face a similar situattion. while the abuse i had gone thru was years ago. also cant talk to my mum she an abuser emotional if we are at home i dont exist unless housework wasnt.done well...i am hoping u will get help.

5 or 6 years old he called me to his flat, he lives next door and I was Alone no baby sitter. Don't know where were my older siblings. I got there it was dark and he said " come see this" he was masturbating and coming ... Had newspaper to catch his come. He said come closer and touch it. I said no yuck and I ran home. The next time I was in his parent's room he laid me on the bed and pulled my panties down. After that I just looked away and closed my eyes. I wasn't there anymore I didn't know what he did to me. Another time again at his place his Brother was home and they were discussing some

Hi i am so sorry to read this. we have somewhat similar experience. right now i want a new family or not at all so i can heal properly....it's horrible that we have ro interact with them.... my doctor once said "i will give you medical leave from seeing family"... :D.... I hope u feel better soon.... Xxxxooo,M Ps: i too want justice but how?

Hi, I feel you...@unsteady0915, I am at the same point in my life except it has been about 30+ years for me. relapsed due to stressors and harassments at work. currently unemployed and not much i can do. cant afford the therapist but i am still going. how's your son? he needs you now more than ever... my kids are adults now and sometimes i wish they knew what had happened to me during childhood but i cant say anything as it would jeopardize alot of other lives over my sanity and my life though valuable is not worth more than so many others so i carry this burden with a few people